Two Friends Journey

It's been a while, but I'M BACK!!!!!

2010-06-26T19:32:00.000-07:00

Okay, okay, okay- I know- it's been WAY TOO LONG!!! But I'm back....

You know, it's interesting to note that I have fallen off the weight loss wagon, and lost lots of motivation since I stopped writing in the blog for Two Friends Journey.... Just goes to show you that journalling things is actual a way to keep on track, stay motivated, stay true and honest to yourself, and actually achieve results!

So a lot has happened since I last blogged, and it's hard to know where to start.... naturally I can't bore you with EVERYTHING that has happened over that time in this one blog, or it will go forever, but there are a few things I'd love to share with you.

Firstly, as of today I weight 85.3kg (187.5lbs). Aside from a bout of gastro, this is the lightest I have been on this journey- I'm really happy to say that today, because I was this weight over a month ago, but I put on 2kg- in the last two weeks, I've lost those 2kg to get back to the lowest weight I was.... so onwards and upwards from here!

So I would love to lost another 15kg (33lbs)- maybe even 20kg (44lbs).... but I'd be over the moon with 10kg (22lbs).... I think I've left my run a bit late in being able to make that goal by August when I head over to see CG and have our swimsuit shoot- but I'm going to give it my best shot!

Since I've blogged, I've met a boy!!! Things are going really well- and I'm not afraid to say that I can see us spending the rest of our lives together! This is exciting, and we both have very full social lives- it's surprising really that I only put on 2kg- the damage could have been much worse!!

So I've got back into the swing of 3 personal training sessions a week- my boy and I are still working on 'routine', but I plan to jog at least 2-3 times a week (if not more), and I'm trying out zumba this week, which could become a one or two weekly permanent thing if all goes well! Now I need to get right back on track with my eating habits (I'm not on a diet though, so will not be giving up on anything- just watching what I eat, when I eat and how much I eat)!

Recently I have participated in two fun runs, and have another in a few weeks- the first I jogged a whole 8km (5 miles), the next I jogged a while 10km (6.25 miles), and we're hoping to do 10km in the next one too... This really is a huge milestone for me- even in high school I was never fit enough to jog those distances- especially non-stop!

So I have lots to share with you- and I am going to use this blog as an integral ingredient in my weight loss / fitness / healthier lifestyle journey.... I will aim to write weekly again- but even if it's not weekly, it will be regularly....

All the support I can get for the second part of this journey would be appreciated.... and any comments, suggestions, advise that anyone has, I would love, love, love to hear it.... getting back on the wagon has been harder than I thought.... so for this second part, I just don't want to fall off again! :)

No Longer Overweight

2010-04-17T03:55:00.001-07:00

Today brought an important milestone in my journey. I am no longer overweight! I lost 2 lbs this week bringing my weight to 158 lbs and losing a total of 42 lbs total. In all of my ups and downs over the years I never thought I would see this weight again or any of the others that I have passed already. I still have the remaining 18 to lose for my overall goal of 140 lbs but each day that passes I have the knowledge that I will get there.

It has been about 2 months since I last journaled what I ate at all. This week I was pretty lazy in the beginning. I ate chocolate and some McDonald's. But then I did the right thing and said "Enough! Don't lose sight of your life long goal and get back on track". Normally if I deviate from healthy eating and exercise I have trouble getting back in the swing of things. It is getting easier and part of that is when I do eat food that is more unhealthy for me my body doesn't like it and let's me know it doesn't feel good.

I will not lie friends, the scariest part of my journey is coming up. When I reach 140 I will have to learn to maintain that weight. That is no easy feat for me. I can gain very easily and lose more easily than maintain. However my first leader in Weight Watchers years ago when I started for the first time once told me that if I thought I was never going to gain for the rest of my life that was unrealistic. At that point I told myself the hardest part is not in winning or losing but in staying with it even when it is easier to quit. Obviously over the years I had quit staying with it but no more.

Ironically I only have 3 more pounds to loose by next Saturday to reach my goal of losing 10 lbs by my birthday. At 35 I feel more confident and sure of myself than I ever have in my life. I feel more confident and sure of who I am than I did 1t 29 being a size 3. Then I used my body as a shield against the world in a different way. You can look at me but I won't let you see who I am. Today it is see me for who I am and accept the imperfections in my body that tell my life story. They say I am a mother and I am not a quitter.. two wonderful things!

No matter what your journey is, whether it is weight loss or otherwise, please don't give up for you can attain everything you dream. Thank you again for all your support and wishing everyone a happy and healthy week!

Reflection

2010-04-03T04:27:00.000-07:00

Another week down and Easter is upon us tomorrow. Spring has arrived with beauty and the promise of more to come in the future. I am getting closer to my own goal promise to myself. I lost 1.5 this week (total of 37.5) and a 5 inches over my whole body (total of 22 inches). When I stepped on the scale this morning I weighed 162.5 and I have not weighed that since 2005. I am 3.5 lbs away from the top of my healthy weight range.

I have been doing a lot of reflection lately of all sorts. Reflection is only as effective as the inner mirror you are using. Your outer mirror can be just fine, but if your inner mirror is acting like a fun house mirror the outer one might as well be broken. My inner mirror has been horribly distorted for 5 years. I can not regret all of it. I would not have reconnected with Sid in such a way if we both hadn't realized a need in ourselves to be better and decided to do that together. I do regret the missed opportunities in those 5 years, but I can't beat myself up about it.

My weight in those 5 years was my buffer from the world. I used it to hide and say "Stay away! Do not hurt me! I am unworthy!". I feel like a caterpillar turning into a butterfly and I am now inviting life in. I am saying "I choose life, I choose hope, I choose love and I am worth it and will give it back 10 fold!". Not all of that has been met yet but for the first time in a long time I am comfortable with who I am and I am not trying to repel people anymore. I connect with people more and I am hoping in that connecting I will find someone to share my life with. If I didn't at least like myself how in the heck was someone else going to? Even if they liked what they saw it would get old having to constantly fill my need for validation and drive them away. This will be one of the hardest parts of my journey through my life.

Surround yourself with positive people in life. I am not saying walk away from the people in need in life. However you have to learn to manage the ones who are not positive. I have people right now who do not like me as much now that I am losing weight. It isn't that they don't like my outer image.. they do not like the strength I am finding in myself to not be a doormat anymore. I am starting to want for myself and if I want for myself I cannot give my all to everyone else as I have been doing. The positive people in your life understand your needs and want you to meet them. The positive people in your life can be your outer mirror when your inner one has broken or needs to be repaired.

My inner mirror has come back from the repair shop and I am learning to stand tall in it looking straight on and not just taking quick peaks and darting away. I am learning to say I look good without adding on "except for ...". I am learning that who I am enhances how I look and both are okay.

Thank you all for being my outer mirror on the times that I have looked at it and saw distortion. I am wishing you all a Happy Easter and a week filled with success, happiness and love!!

Balance

2010-03-27T04:10:00.001-07:00

So much to talk about today my friends! I had a successful weigh in this week. I lost 3.5 lbs for a total of 36 lbs overall and 3 inches off my body (most of that in my hips and thighs.. the two hardest spots!) for a total of 17 inches overall. This was a HUGE success not just for the scale going down. I have not journaled a meal in 2 weeks. I do not want to be tied down to calculating points for every bite that passes my lips for the rest of my life and I appear for now to be learning to listen to my body's signals. I took my daughter out to dinner last night and decided to splurge with the chicken strip dinner, mashed potatoes, garden salad and a Coke. I ate the salad first and was working on the potatoes when the server came over and asked me if the chicken strips were okay or did I need a take home container. It smacked me in the face that YES I did need a take home container.. my body was starting to say full already and I still had potatoes to eat. My Coke which used to be like a drug to me... drank not even a quarter of it. Next time I will just stick with water because at least that's free.. lol!

If I am going to talk about success then I need to talk about a pitfall. When I am busy and in the zone, the less I eat the less my body tells me I am hungry. When I look back on this week in my head I can see that I didn't really eat as much as I should have. My body brought this home to me in an in your face way on my walk with Roxy yesterday when I got dizzy. I went to a beautiful spot on lunch and got caught up in enjoying it and decided to use the bleachers for a little leg toning. Next thing you know I never ate lunch at all and the bowl of cereal I had at 8am finally stopped giving my body what it needed by 5pm. While I need to listen to my body I also need to remember that due to my history my body will go without food and not tell me I'm hungry if I don't pay attention.

Now I need your help everyone. I have an outing in about a month that I would like to lose 10 lbs in time for and reward myself with a new outfit. I know they say more than 2 lbs a week is not good for you but I would not have to loose much more than 2 lbs a week. Am I pushing to hard and loosing sight of the journey? It is getting harder with the end in sight, although I still haven't decided if I want to push a little farther past my original goal.

It is so hard in life to balance everything that you have to do, what you want to do and what you can do. Take time to hear the birds sing, enjoy the moment you're having instead of looking ahead to what's next and eat an unhealthy meal every once in awhile. After dinner last night my daughter said to me "Mom this was really nice. It was nice to veg out with you and just eat but not worry about it being healthy." Out of the mouth of babes as they say!

May this week bring you all success, strength, happiness, love and anything else you desire. Until then!

Half Way There

2010-03-20T12:27:00.000-07:00

This week I lost 5 lbs! I also lost an additional 3.5 inches off my body overall. I have now lost a total of 32.5 lbs out of the 60 I would like to loose as a whole. I have had much success lately after really struggling with a mental plateau that manifested itself into a physical plateau. I feel really good about myself lately! I still struggle with accepting my body as it is and that will be a life long battle but I am getting better at loving myself. Sid and I have talked about not wanting to be single our whole lives and I am hoping my new attitude and image will lead to someone loving me someday as well all the health benefits that come with this!

I promised a before and after picture when I reached the halfway mark. I had a really hard time finding a picture of myself from around the time I started. And there were no full body pictures to be found so what I had was actually about a month before I started this journey and 10 lbs lighter but you get an idea. I am amazed at the different people I see. I was unhappy before and desperately trying to not show it. I did not allow people to see the me inside and I probably missed out on some happy moments because of it. I was still not comfortable enough to wear the tankini for my picture today but I see a happier more confident person in the after.

Thank you all again for such wonderful support on this journey and for taking it with Sid and I. It is hard to believe we are less than 6 months until Sid and I meet again in person and do our swimsuit photoshoot! Everyone have a healthy and happy week!

Spring

2010-03-13T04:55:00.000-08:00

Spring is in the air here (at least here in the US)! There is the cleansing rains, the smell of fresh, damp, earth. Things are getting ready to come out of a winter borough and start living again.

Same here in my weight loss journey. I blogged earlier this week about starting over again. The previous week I had gained 4 lbs. I am proud to say that this week I lost 4.5 and another inch in my waist. My hips and thighs are still being stubborn but I didn't use pilates at all this week so I guess I can't be surprised. I put on my tankini the other day and that fit for the first time in 2 years! Frankly I was surprised to find I kept it but I am glad that I am. I was very active this week with walking, dancing and Zumba. Have any of you tried it yet?

I was VERY busy this week. I was buried at work but instead of letting that push me to a chocolate bar I instead was able to still keep committed to myself. I cooked dinner every night, I exercised and worked on talking positive about myself. I still feel silly when I do it but I am trying. We went to the movies last night and I managed to fend off the 3 very nice girls I had with that were pushing Twizzlers and Popcorn. (LOVE Twizzlers!)I am disappointed that I didn't get to try a new recipe this week and sorry I forgot to post one on the blog but hopefully next week will be a little better time wise.

I love summer but I am loving the "spring" feel I have right now. The feeling that I am learning about myself and hopefully making steps for my life to be complete in every way I want.

It is only 2.5 lbs until an updated picture. I don't know if I can do that all in the next week but I will try. I am not brave enough to put the tankini in the picture yet but I promise that I will post a new one soon and remember we have bathing suit shots coming up this summer when Sid and I meet again face to face!

Starting Over

2010-03-08T04:42:00.000-08:00

Today is Monday which is a great day to start over I think! I had a not surprising gain on Saturday. I was upset and tweeted (if interested I am @mzkmkr123)about my frustration and lack of success. She is an amazing fount of positive encouragement for many (@laughitoff) who has a GREAT blog! She said for me to step back from the big picture and just aim for something small like losing 5 lbs and keeping it off. I know I have said this before but sometimes it takes another person saying it to make it hit home with me.

So today I start again and simpler. Sid I am sorry I let you down by failing at my 40 day challenge. You continue to inspire me with your dedication and success. You do not lose sight of what you want and how to get there!!

In keeping with starting over and keeping it simple I went back to something basic. I cooked dinner for the first time in a week. I made the Cashew Chicken with Rice recipe. We left off the cashews but it was amazing! (Leftovers tonight) A great way to have a Chinese dish without the 5 lb sodium bloat the next day. My daughter had complained about rice and celery but wound up liking it. And it was music to my ears to hear "Mom have you tried the bamboo shoots? They're great!".

We cleaned house top to bottom yesterday and I reconnected with a "simple" exercise. My daughter washed the floor and I dried it with a towel afterwards. Place the towel on the floor, step on towel and duck walk(quacking optional!)entire area to be dried. Simple pilates all!!

So I am happy this Monday to be recommitting to myself (I feel like a broken record) and I am asking all of you for a favor. If you don't hear from me how things are going please kick me ok?

Hoping this Monday finds you all relaxed and ready for a fantastic week!

National Cereal Day

2010-03-05T05:49:00.000-08:00

Sunday is National Cereal Day. So to celebrate let's talk about one of the most common breakfast items that people eat. Walking down the cereal aisle at the store can be a dizzying experience! There is a variety of colors, shapes and characters jumping at you from boxes and bags.

You may have already heard that they place items they want to sell at eye level, but there is much more that goes into product advertising. Who isn't "Coocoo for Cocoa Puffs", feeling "GREEAATT", or starting their morning with a "Snap, Crackle, Pop"? I am an avid lover of Fruit Loops! That toucan makes some sweet cereal! I remember all the toys that would come in the box when I was a kid. 3 kids and one toy in the box made for some interesting mornings let me tell you!

But take away the cute characters, toy incentives and what are you left with? Something that isn't very healthy for you or filling. My daughter is always trying to ask for Cinnamon Toast Crunch. Who came up with that? Don't get me wrong but what person let alone kid needs to start their day with multiple servings of sugary squares. They may fortify it with vitamins but it is basically sugar squares. Same concept as those Baby Bottle Pops but that could be a WHOLE separate blog. Yes you may start your day with a spring after eating a heaping bowl of it but the crash you will feel shortly after that is going to be bad. Then you are going to need more sugar to perk up and the cycle continues.

Did you know that most cereal's have a serving size of 3/4 (30g) cup? Measure it out some time and see how small it is compared to what we just pour in a bowl. If you want something a little better for you look for the boxes that are a little plainer. Things that are healthy are not going to have a character, toy or big flashing sign. My opinion on life is that things you really need or are good for you are quiet. They don't need to advertise in a flashy way because their reputation will spread by word of mouth.

I'll let you in on a little secret. Some of the healthy stuff tastes HORRIBLE! But I have found many over the years that are not bad. Kashi makes some wonderful cereals but can be a little pricey. They are high in fiber and also make great snacks on the run. I personally endorse the Heart to Heart (better for you Cheerios), Peanut Butter Squares and Cinnamon Squares. I tried Special K cereal but just couldn't stomach it. Basically it is Frosted Flakes without the sugar.. no thanks.

Right now I eat Frosted Mini Wheats. Yes it has sugar but the fiber in it keeps my points down and fills me up longer.

Do you have a special cereal or healthy breakfast that you eat?

What Stresses You Out?

2010-03-03T07:05:00.000-08:00

Hello again! I am stealing some time to write this because the topic for today is part of the reason I haven't been blogging and I realized just how much I miss it!

Right on the heels of my last success (literally) several things happened that all revolved around stress. Stress is my number one enemy and a common theme in my life. I am a single mom, my mother who has health problems lives with me and EVERYTHING falls to me. Shopping, house and property maintenance, dog care, daughter social life, and other things I cannot think of right now. I am sad to not have a partner in my life but honestly I can't imagine giving time to one more person right now. Add onto that I work full time and things just went up a whole nother level. There is no pity party here.. don't get me wrong! I am blessed to have what I do and so many others have it worse but that doesn't negate the fact that this generates a LOT of stress sometimes. I often feel like someone with the spinning plates and lately they have crashed down.

For those who don't know I also have an under active thyroid. Reading up on that I found that STRESS is a problem for that. It can actually counteract my medication and make it ineffective. Lovely.. now I'm stressed about being stressed..lol! In all seriousness though I think stress is the number one factor in me struggling with my weight. I am always trying to handle it better but the reality of it is I am a person who is "fine" "handling it all" "strong" until I crash and it all comes down.

I have had family issues lately, been sick and the stress has made my thyroid flare up. This led to not eating right, not being able to exercise, exhaustion and a bad mood in general. Then I remembered I don't have to do it alone in the weight loss journey. You all are there right along with me. Being positive makes me feel better even if I am faking it. (Yes.. I DO fake it sometimes)

All of us have stressors and things that cause us to falter. What is/are yours and how do you handle it? I am still sick, still busy beyond belief but SICK of letting the stress overwhelm me right now. So I am once again dusting myself off, and picking up again. I cannot do it all right now, exercise is hard when you are still not healthy but if I can even do one healthy thing each day then I am still in the journey. I am now taking the pressure off myself that I had been placing to lose the remaining 35 pounds ASAP. I allowed myself to be overwhelmed by the big picture and need to keep site of the small picture.

So I am back and for those of you feeling stressed or not so successful right now hang in there and know that you are not alone. And here's something to look forward too.. Spring is knocking on our doors to remind us that it's almost time for sunshine and warmer weather!

I May Stumbe, But I Won't Stay Down

2010-02-20T05:31:00.000-08:00

Finally this week I have gotten back on track! I lost the last 2.5 lbs of what I had gained and lost some of the inches that had come back. So as of today I have lost 27 lbs, and importantly for me 5 inches each in my waist and hips. The thighs are coming along slower but all in time.

Since 2/1 I have struggled with a gain that kinda knocked me off course. I stopped doing basically everything I know I should. I am still looking at this as a learning experience and not a bad thing. There are setbacks in life and I will plateau or fall again but I will not give up. I have determination and I have Sid and all of you!

I will be doing day 4 out of 40 on pilates and journaling shortly here. I feel so energized again and I noticed yesteday that I was really happy. When I was eating not well and not doing what I was supposed to do I was quite moody. Doesn't really surprise me.

Today in the mail my Zumba kit is coming. It is latin inspired dance exercise. It sounds like loads of fun and it has toning weights which I love! I can't wait to see 6 weeks from now what a difference the pilates has made.

Nothing deep this week, just sharing my joy. I hope you all are feeling happy too!

Friday Recipe

2010-02-19T04:46:00.000-08:00

It's food Friday again everyone! I have a few things this week. Some of you may have read already but for those who didn't I tried the Weight Watchers Berries 'n' Cream yogurt for 1 point and it was AMAZING! Sweet, light and tasting like a dessert yet the fiber in it helps make it filling still. Anyone else tried it?

Last night for dinner we tried the Pulled Barbecue Chicken Wrap that I had posted previously. It was a trifecta winner our house. We did not use the onion flakes since no one in our house like onions but that was the only thing we changed. I won't lie, as it was cooking the sauce smelled horrible to me and I was cringing at trying it. But I am committed to being more open and if I hadn't been I would have missed something amazing! It is not sweet or spicy, just the right balance of the two and the crunch of the cold lettuce with it delights your mouth. The only thing I would say is that I tried putting as much chicken in my tortilla as they said and it was way too much. I had two smaller tortilla's instead. With three of us eating I would say in the future that I will only make 2 three ounce chicken breast and not 3 of them. I would love to hear if anyone else tries it what they thought!

The recipe this week is Cashew Chicken. I got this again from www.weightwatchers.com. Can you tell we like chicken in our house?

2tsp peanut oil
2 medium garlic clove(s), minced
1 pound(s) uncooked boneless, skinless chicken breast, cut into 1-inch cubes
1/2 tsp table salt, or more to taste
1/4 tsp black pepper, or more to taste
1 1/2 cup(s) fat-free, reduced-sodium chicken broth, divided
2 tbsp low-sodium soy sauce, or more to taste
2 medium stalk(s) celery, chopped
8 oz canned bamboo shoots, drained
8 oz canned water chestnuts, sliced, drained
1 1/2 tbsp cornstarch
2 cup(s) cooked white rice, kept hot
1 3/4 oz dry-roasted cashews, chopped (about 6 tbsp)

1. Heat oil in a large skillet over medium-high heat. Add garlic and cook for 30 seconds. Season chicken on both sides with salt and pepper and add to skillet.
Cook until browned on all sides, stirring frequently, about 4 minutes.

2. Add 1 cup broth, soy sauce, celery, bamboo shoots and water chestnuts to chicken and bring to a simmer. Reduce heat to low, cover and simmer until chicken is cooked through, about 5 minutes.

3. Dissolve cornstarch in remaining 1/2 cup of broth; add to skillet and simmer until sauce thickens, stirring constantly, about a minute.

4. To serve, divide rice among 4 shallowe dishes. Spoon chicken mixture onto rice and sprinkle with cashews. Yields about 1 cup of chicken, 1/2 cup of rice and 1 1/2 tablespoons of cashews per serving.

They also note that you can add 2 cups of chopped fresh baby bok choy in place of the bamboo shoots and water chestnuts. The tender greens will cook with the chicken in 5 minutes.

Isn't your mouth watering already?

Fat Tuesday

2010-02-16T06:42:00.000-08:00

Today is Fat Tuesday and I am sure that everyone is somewhat aware that Lent is starting tomorrow. In case anyone is not aware, during Lent you give up something that would be hard for 40 days and nights. I am not overtly religious but I am going to use this as a way for me to become healthier.

I need to decide am I going to give something up or add something that is hard. This is where you guys come in. What are some good suggestions to either give up or add? I already don't drink soda so I can't do that easy one. I am counting on you guys!

I Like to Move it, Move it!

2010-02-15T04:42:00.001-08:00

So in effort to get past this hump in my journey I am recommitting to exercise in any way I can. I do enjoy exercise but if I stop for more than a day I find I have trouble getting started again. Saturday I posted how I was committing to doing Pilates every day for a week. I am proud to say I am on day three now and remembering why I loved it!

I have had a dvd for 7 years and blew the dust of it on Saturday. It is by Crunch and called "Pick Your Spot Pilates". It is three 10 minute segments for your belly, butt and thighs. How can I NOT find 10 minutes a day? Pilates will really whittle the inches away and tone if you keep at it. The only down side to Pilates is that if you stop doing them then the results go away. I don't know why I am always surprised at this.

My recommendation for people starting Pilates is only do a section at a time. When I first started doing them 7 years ago I made the mistake of doing all three sections for three days in a row. I was practically paralyzed! It shouldn't surprise me as I am not very good at an exercise that will utilize your whole body all at once. I do better when I can focus my attention and work in one area and then rotate areas.

I also want to recommend for those of you who have Wii a new game called "Just Dance". You hold your Wii remote in your right hand and follow the moves on the screen to different songs. It will judge you on your accuracy sensed by the remote. It is loads of fun and after 30 minutes I was drenched in sweat! You can't beat a combo like that.

What is your go to way to get or keep moving?

Sid's Weekend Wind Down- I LOVE THE 80s!

2010-02-13T20:31:00.000-08:00

I'm excited to say that I am doing the '80's Dance'!!! I weighed in this morning and have lost 1.5kg (3.3lbs) in total for this week!! That now means that I am 89.9kg (197.8lbs)... so even in pounds it's a great achievement- under 200lbs!!! Woo hoo!!!

It's so funny that I decided last week to change my reward for when I got to 90kg!! Lucky I did, or I'd be out this week organising an appointment with my tattooist!!! lol... But hey, that might only be a month or so away, as that's my next reward for 85kg- and now that's only 4.9kg away... Exciting!!

Weight loss can be so interesting, as I couldn't really pin point anything I did differently this week to lose 1.5kg. Perhaps not losing anything last week meant this week's numbers were bigger.... I have been really giving it my all in my training sessions, and doing everything I can to work up a real sweat (proof that my heart rate is up), and I've also been trying to concentrate on eating only what I want to- I still don't think I've got out of the mind frame of eating everything in front of me, or dinner should be a certain size etc- so for dinner one night I just had two eggs scrambled- nothing else... I'd had salad in my sandwich during the day, and some fruit, and by dinner time I just wasn't that hungry... Perhaps listening to my body more has helped.

This was the last week of our six week challenge at training- we get measured tomorrow night. I haven't been measured since the beginning of January, and wasn't overly happy with the results then, so I'm eager to see how I go this time round... the winner gets a free week of training- I really hope the winner is me- but I've got some tough competition!!!

Speaking of training, Kelly put a link on her website that takes viewers to Two Friends Journey, so I'd just like to publicly thank her for being so supportive, and encourage people to check out her website as well- even if you're not local, she's keeping a blog too, so might be a good motivating read from time to time: http://www.elitephysiqueonline.com/

I tried my luck at making 'veggie chips' last weekend.... like potato chips, but I made them out of carrots and zucchinis. I still need to perfect it, but think when I do, they'll make great snacks, and an even better alternative to rice crackers (that are my weekday morning snack- without fail!!). I basically used a peeler to peel slices of carrot, mixed some lemon pepper in, then baked them in the oven on 150 degrees Celsius (300 Fahrenheit) for an hour. They tasted good, but the pieces were too small. So I need to perfect that. I think eggplant, parsnip, and sweet potato might also be good to try it with!

Oh, and I went sailing yesterday! Wow, so much fun, and loads of adrenalin. Especially when the spinnaker got tangled, ended in the water, and the boat was literally on a 90 degree angle with me hanging on upside down for dear life!!! But I was not disappointed, a really fun day out- and a great muscle work out too!!!

It's taken me about 4 months to lose that first 10kg (22lbs)- I wonder how fast I can burn off the next 10kg.... Did I mention that my weight is now in the 80s?!!! :)

Have a great week all.

-Sid-

Weekend Windown

2010-02-13T04:18:00.000-08:00

There were some good things this week and some not so good things. That's what life is made of so I refuse to let anything send me in the dumps emotionally although it is harder to stay positive this week than last.

I lost a pound this week and a small measurement in my hips and thighs. YAY! I had gained 3 lbs last week and no gain is a good thing. I walked every day but one last week due to the cold.

Now the not so good things. As of yesterday morning I had lost all 3 lbs. Then I made a not so bright move. I had a group of people over and they were kind and brought bags of chips including my favorite! Had I asked them they would not have brought them but I need to learn to be around food that I do not eat. If I live in a bubble that will restrict me quite a bit. Needless to say I decided to have just one chip. I am sure you can guess that I didn't stop with just one. I didn't eat the whole bag (Yay!) but I ate enough that my enemy sodium changed the scales.

I had mentioned before that I am struggling with a mental challenge as well. It is like a mental plateau and still hanging in there. I feel like a cranky kid sometimes.

"I don't want to write what I eat, I don't want to exercise, I want to eat chocolate and chips and other things. They get to do it.. I want to also!"

If I was my child I would being given a time out right about now. (My daughter would get a big kick out of that!) I went back again to my journals that I have kept and yes right about this weight I went through the same thing about 7 years ago at the same weight. I kept with it then and was able to go on and be successful losing over 100 lbs so I will keep with it now. It may mean that I plateau a little for awhile but the end result and my health is the important part so time is nothing.

I almost didn't blog this morning as I was embarrassed that I had screwed up again but hiding things is never good. So if you see me being really quiet and hiding...pin me down and ask me what is going on! Thank you for sharing this journey with Sid and I and for allowing me to be "Debbie Downer" today.

Here's my commitment to myself this week: I will do 10 minutes of pilates daily this week.

Is there something you can commit to this week? What is it?

Chocolate Crepes

2010-02-12T05:07:00.000-08:00

Found this fabulous recipe on Gina's Weight Watchers Recipes. Check out her site www.weight-watchers-points-recipes.blogspot.com. Perfect for a Valentine's Day breakfast or anytime really!

Chocolate Crepes with Strawberries
Gina's Weight Watcher Recipes
Servings: 12 • Serving Size: 1 crepe • Calories: 135 • Points: 2.5 pts

1 cup all purpose flour
2 tbsp unsweetened dutch cocoa powder
1 tbsp powdered sugar

1 1/2 cups 1% milk
2 large egg whites
1 whole egg

1 tsp oil
butter flavored spray
24 strawberries, sliced (2 in each crepe)
fat free cool whip

chocolate syrup to serve

Blend flour, milk, cocoa powder, powdered sugar, eggs and oil until smooth in the blender. Heat a large nonstick pan on medium-low flame. When hot, spray with buttered flavored spray to coat bottom of pan. Pour 1/4 cup crepe mixture into pan, swirling pan slightly to make crepe thin and smooth. Cook for 1 to 2 minutes or until bottom of crepe is light golden brown. Flip; cook 30 seconds to 1 minute or until light golden brown. Repeat with remaining buttered flavored spray and crepe mixture.

To serve, spoon 2 tbsp whipped cream into center of each crepe. Top with strawberries and fold each edge of crepe over filling. Sprinkle lightly with powdered sugar and top with 1 tbsp chocolate syrup on each. Serve warm.

Batter can be refrigerated for up to 2 days.

Valentine's Day

2010-02-10T05:24:00.000-08:00

Is it me or does it seem that every month there is a celebration or two that involves food? We just navigated the Superbowl parties and now here we are with Valentine's Day coming up. Whether you're single or in a relationship, you are being bombarded in stores with celebration options and a lot of them involve food. In my family at all holidays I have for years been saying that family gatherings should be about having a good time and now what and how much we are eating. Never the less, if you go to most stores and look in the Valentine's aisle you will see mass quantities of treats to express your love. To some that is like finding the pot of gold at the end of the rainbow but to people like me that is like walking a minefield if I go down it. There are chocolates in all shapes and flavors, there are candy hearts, there are suckers, marshmallow treats and many other things I am not listing. (Is your mouth watering yet?)

Chocolate was first produced as a gift for Valentine's Day in 1894. Do you think they knew that it would get as popular as it is? I wonder if it got popular due to it's reputation as a mood enhancer for women, Me.. I want to curl up and nap after a chocolate feast. Here is a fact that might make you stop next time you feel the need for a little chocolate. If you eat one M&M you need to walk the equivalent of once around a football field to burn off those calories. Please raise your hand if you eat just one M&M.. anyone? Yeah.. me neither. Realistically we all eat chocolate from time to time and now when I do I try to make sure I eat dark chocolate. It is better for me and so rich I cannot eat as much as I would with regular chocolate.

How can you celebrate Valentine's Day without overindulging? You could take a stroll with your loved one. That could be anyone.. a love, a family member, dog or even yourself. Bundle up and get your heart pumping. Your heart and your butt will thank you for it! I don't think I have to list other cardio activities that you can use to celebrate Valentine's Day if you have a partner...

Cook dinner for your loved one or together. You have control over the portions and content. Of course there is nothing wrong with going to a restaurant too. There are plenty of healther options if you so choose or you can order one appetizer, entree and dessert to share together. The act of feeding each other will make the meal more romantic and cut down on calories as well!

Skip food and exercise and go for what you want. That could be a massage, watching a movie, whatever it is that you enjoy. Me? I'll be walking my dogs with my daughter and probably playing some Wii Fit.

What are your plans?

My week of Contradictions

2010-02-09T03:23:00.000-08:00

Firstly I must start with an apology.... I have had every intention of writing my 'Sunday' post, but have had computer issues and lack of time... Finally I have a few minutes before bed, and am finally able to prioritise Two Friend's Journey (just like it should be!).

So, my week... well I did NOT lose anything AT ALL..... However, I also did NOT gain anything AT ALL!!! So for what could be perceived as a negative, I'm choosing to see as a positive- naturally that being I did not gain!!

Why didn't I lose weight?? Like the title of this post suggests, it's been a real week of contradictions... Let me explain!

To answer my own question- I think the reason I didn't lose weight is because I ate too much bread, and had a day when I ate pate and cheese (two things that rarely enter my mouth these days).... it doesn't seem, when I say it out loud, that it's a very good reason, but it's really the only thing that I slipped on this week (although there were two mornings where I didn't walk- but most weeks I slip up a little there- oh, although I didn't do any long walks during the week either.... so maybe that did contribute too)...

Regardless, this week I felt great! I seriously noticed this week that clothes that I wear every day, somehow overnight just simply did not fit anymore- way to big!! And even many of the size 16 clothes I've purchased recently seem to be getting baggy! (*smile*)!! And I've tried on so many clothes from my wardrobe that I haven't even looked at for years, and they fit so beautifully- some too big already... sadly most are winter clothes, so am unlikely to really get the chance to wear what fits me now- since they will be too big by the time I need them!!!!

And over the last week I've discovered that I can jog 2.2km... If you include today, then I have jogged 2.2km non-stop on three separate occasions!!! That to me is such a milestone! And yet I have felt the most unfit I have felt since I started on this journey. Admittedly, my fitness has increased substantially since then, but I really felt unfit! I had a few days of being out of breath on my morning walk before I even finished my warm-up!! (I did take hand weights out this week- 1.4kg each-, and that seemed to make a real difference- much harder!!)

So:

No weight loss
Clothes way too big (all of a sudden)
Can jog 2.2km
Feel unfit

Explain that!!!

Never the less, a new week, a new opportunity....

My 90kg reward (ie the reward I plan to give myself when I reach 90kg) was going to be a new tattoo that I have wanted for about the last five years (a heart inside the outline of a star with swirls coming off the points of the star- size of a small circle {think tip of index finger meets tip of thumb} on my upper back), but I've decided that a much better reward will be to up my personal training sessions to three a week (instead of two). I really enjoy those sessions, and I figure by increasing my activity in that respect, I'm going to get to 85kg, 80kg, 75kg, 70kg a whole lot faster than if I went out and got a tattoo!!! So the tatt will be my reward at 85kg I think, and that gorgeous swimsuit at 80kg!!

So here's to a successful week- looks like CG and I are in-tune with our bodies habits, even though we're oceans apart!! I think we'll both be very eager to tell you all about our week come next weekend!

-Sid-

(I also entered the Australian Weight Loss Challenge- after three months if you have lost more than 5kg you go in the running to win $10k!! Nothing to lose accept the kilos, right?!!)

Oops I Did It Again...

2010-02-06T09:44:00.000-08:00

No I am not channeling my inner Britney Spears this morning. I gained again this week. It was 3 pounds and I knew it was coming. How you ask? Because I didn't do a darn thing I know I needed to do this week. I didn't journal, eat healthy or exercise. What I did do that was right was get on the scale this morning and face it without letting it send me into a junk food eating binge of "I hate myself I can't do this!". The second thing I did right was to blog about it. I have a tendency to hide when I do not have success at weight loss and that starts the slippery slope to quitting. So I summoned up my courage this morning to share with you my gain.

Life is not perfect and neither am I. I have an addictive personality. I don't really drink, I don't smoke or do drugs. But if I enjoy it I have a tendency to want to do it/have it A LOT. I sometimes have to remind myself that is like an addiction and how well would a recovering person do if they had to drink, smoke or drug every day but only in moderation? Don't misunderstand me that I am saying that people cannot overcome this and lose weight to be healthier, but I truly believe that it is just as hard for people with food issues as it is with other vices to overcome.

So I start another week more committed than I was before and if for no other reason than that the gain was a positive thing. But after I lose them again I consider them a guest who has overstayed their welcome and they are NOT welcome back!

What was your challenge this week?

Favorite Fridays

2010-02-05T04:38:00.000-08:00

It's the Colts versus the Saints on Superbowl Sunday but a party can make it food versus willpower for many of us. With a little planning you can enjoy this day in a way that won't "Super" size your waistline!

Serve this Layered Mexican Bean Dip

16 ounce can of refried beans
3 medium avocado, mashed
1/4 teaspoon salt
1 teaspoon fresh lemon juice
1 cup reduced fat sour cream
2 tablespoons fajita seasoning mix
1/2 cup reduced fat shredded mexican-style cheese
1 small tomato chopped
2 medium scallion(s), sliced
10 medium black olive(s), sliced or chopped
2 tablespoons cilantro, fresh, chopped

1. Spread beans evenly over bottom of a 9- X 13-inch glass baking dish or a medium-size glass bowl.

2. In a small bowl, combine avocado, salt and lemon juice. Spread avocado mixture over beans; top with sour cream.

3. Sprinkle fajita seasoning over sour cream layer. Next, layer remaining ingredients on top in order listed.

4. Serve immediately with jicama slices and other fresh vegetables for dipping, or chill until ready to use. Yields about 1/4 cup of dip per serving.

or these Beef Nachos

32 item(s) baked low-fat tortilla chips
2 spray(s) cooking spray
6 oz uncooked lean ground beef (with 7% fat)
1/2 tsp dried oregano
1/2 tsp table salt, or more to taste
3/4 cup(s) canned diced tomatoes, with adobe (smoky/spicy) or chipolte (hot)
2/3 cup(s) canned refried black beans
1/2 cup(s) low-fat shredded cheddar cheese, or crumbled queso blanco
1/2 cup(s) scallion(s), finely sliced
2 medium jalapeno pepper(s), finely minced (or to taste; do not touch seeds with bare hands)

1. Preheat broiler to high. Arrange tortilla chips on a nonstick baking sheet in a single layer but close together; set aside

2. Coat a large nonstick skillet with cooking spray; heat over a medium heat. Add beef and cook until browned, breaking up meat as it cooks, about 3 to 4 minutes. Season with oregano and salt; stir in tomatoes and beans. Cook until heated through, stirring occasionally, about 3 to 5 minutes.

3. Spoon beef mixture over chips; sprinkle with cheese. Broil until cheese melts, about 30 seconds to 1 minute. Remove from broiler; sprinkle with scallions and jalapenos. Yields 4 nachos per serving.

There is a recipe for homemade pizza in one of my blog entries last year that is fantastic! The two recipes I gave you are just the beginning of what you can find with a little searching. I recommend the sites www.hungry-girl.com for recipes and www.dwlz.com if you are eating out.

If you are going to a party instead of hosting, feel free to bring a healthy dish that you can enjoy guilt free. I find that most people don't know a dish is healthy unless I actually tell them.

Look to Fridays for favorite recipes, sites and products.

How do you plan to celebrate the Superbowl this Sunday?

Wow Wednesdays

2010-02-03T04:43:00.000-08:00

We are making some changes to our blog and trying to make it more interesting. We are going to try "Wow Wednesdays" starting today where people can share their success stories. Your success can be a weight loss, a healthy lifestyle change, maintaining a weight loss or anything else you want to share Hearing of other people's successes is just as motivating as having your own!

We have added a page on facebook to go along with this that will be easier for people to add information they want to share. You can add photos, links, videos, create an event and expand you support group. We hope you will join us over there and pass it on to your friends as well! We are also going to be adding polls to our blogs periodically starting today. Please make sure to take a look after you are done reading today.

What is the biggest success you have had so far?

Stories about jogging, and about honesty!!

2010-02-03T00:04:00.000-08:00

The week is well under way, and I have something I'm really excited to share!!! Yesterday morning I started on my morning walk (as usual), and had planned on doing interval training. When I got to the top of the street (I use the stretch from my house to the top of the street as my warm up walk) I started jogging.... and something in me just decided that I wanted to see if I could run from there all the way home.... AND I DID!!!!

Usually when I do interval training, I push myself to get to the next sign post, or the next fence, or the next curb, but yesterday I decided not to do that, and instead just picture home!! I stopped about 200 meters (0.1 miles) from home to wind down... That resulted in a 2.2kb (1.4 miles) jog! It wasn't fast, I'm sure I looked exhausted, but I kept up my rhythm, and I did it!!! So excited- this is a first for me!!!

So then this morning, I thought I would just do a long walk, but I got out there and thought to myself that I should test this jogging out- just to see if it was a fluke!!! But sure enough I made it 2.2km again!!! Yippee!!! Hopefully being able to do this will help me to shed some kilos faster, and get rid of the horrible tummy that I have come to hate so much.... (remember that point, because I'm going to return to that shortly!!)...

My trainer suggested that now that I've started jogging, that I continue just jogging the 2.2km and aim to get the time down. Once I'm able to jog it in a shorter period of time, then I should start to add distance to the run. She seems to think that before I know it I'll be able to run 4 or 5 km (2.5- 3 miles)!!! Can you imagine that?? So exciting!!!

I'm not sure if I mentioned that she has set up a 6 week challenge at training. The person who wins (the most centimetres lost from your body measurements) will win a free training session.... So I don't get to be measured for another week and a half, but Kelly (my trainer) seems to think it's going to come down to me and one of the other girls.... Fingers crossed!!!

Remember when I wrote the entry about 'Who Says Men Don't Notice'? Well the same guy was in chatting to me yesterday, we were talking about our trainers and working out, and mid conversation I got up out of my chair, and he looked me up and down and said "Wow, you've lost heaps, you're looking great"!!! So nice!!! :)

But then we come to HONESTY!!! I've been blessed with lots of compliments along this journey to date (and hope they won't slow down, it's so motivating getting compliments), but sometimes the compliments can be a bit backward- like today.... A girl at work continues to tell me that "you can so tell you've lost weight"... Today she's looking at me and she says "You know, you can see that your bum has really tightened up, and that your face has got thinner, and your legs are looking better, and your arms have slimmed down too. Once you get rid of your flabby belly you'll be perfect"........ That flabby belly....... I hate it... How embarrassing and depressing that it's so noticible that she thought to comment... I'm sure if she's said that, then other people must be thinking the same thing....

So what does this mean for now?? Control top briefs for a while?? You know, if she mentioned my ankles I probably would have felt the same... or my boobs... The three areas of my body I really don't like.. but if she had have said my arms for example, I don't think it would have bothered me so much!!

Anyway- forget the back handed compliment- I can job 2.2km!!! So happy with that!

Wish me luck for a successful week of weight loss...

And watch this space, CG discussed some exciting ideas with me today..... hopefully if we can make them happen, you'll find this blog really exciting (even more than it already is!!!) :)

-Sid-

I lost.... I lost.... I lost.... Yippee!! (and phew!!)

2010-01-30T19:31:00.000-08:00

Well.... this week I lost 900 grams!! That's about 2lbs! And I'm really happy with that result!

A funny week, but I'm hoping this loss is a sign that I am really thinking about the consequences of when I eat things that aren't so healthy, and make up for it in other ways (whether it be by how hard I exercise, or what else I eat etc)!

On Tuesday it was Australia Day. I ended up sitting in the sun, sipping on water and diet mineral water to minimise the liquid calories, but indulged in BBQ hamburger, sausages, kangaroo, as well as some delicious deserts, including birthday pavlova, and lamingtons (for the US followers, do a google search- two of the most delicious Aussie deserts- YUMMO!!)...

Then on Friday it was my friend's 30th. We went to Chinese, and I left feeling so full!!! Aside from the fact we had lamingtons (again) in the office that day, I felt a bit scared to be eating Chinese after a week that ultimately wasn't the best eating week. But I opted for steamed rice instead of fried rice, and ordered a plate of Chinese vegetables to go on the lazy susan (which I ate most of anyway!!)... I did have some dim sims (pop suckers) and some duck too- which was DELICIOUS!!!!

I've been craving sweet food a little this weekend... but with nothing in my house that really resembles treats, I made myself some french toast- it was so good- and really, probably not all that bad for me- given that I decided to make that my dinner last night!!! I've had a lot of baked bean meals this week too!!!! Sounds shocking I know, but I've had a few late dinners and just wanted to eat something quick and easy!! A friend suggested low fat cheese on the toast, and then the baked beans, topped with bbq sauce and pepper... could just be my new favourite quick fix meal!!!!

Two mornings I didn't walk as well, and because of the public holiday I only had one personal training session.... So all I can say is that something must be going right!!!

And I'm also going to say that this week I'm going to work super hard to make sure none of those sweet things creep up on me this week!!!

I also started seeing a life coach this week- it was my first session, and I think it's going to go really well. She had me fill out a questionairre prior to meeting up, and she told me that my answers were very thorough. She noticed that this health kick / weight loss journey I am on is obviously one I'm very confident about, and she felt it didn't need us to spend too much time on it... She may be right.... there are days when it's still a struggle, but I know what I have to do, I've got the ball rolling, I've enlisted support, and have CG right beside me (albeit 10,000 miles away!!), and we have this blog!!

On Australia day, one of my best friends told me that he thought what I was doing was so good, especially the blog, because now everyone knows that I'm losing weight, and I can't fail, because everyone will know!!!! He also told me that my weight loss was really noticible around my middle... You know he's right... The support we've been looking for in this blog, is the support that is going to keep us on track- and if that support comes simply down to knowing that people are interested in our success, then it really does make it that bit easier to keep sight of the goal!

However it doesn't necessarily make the journey an easy one... although I've realised this week that I don't really feel like I'm dieting or sacrificing anything in my life to do this... not even chocolate!!!!! But I do have ups and downs- this week I've been feeling a bit depressed and down in the dumps, and there have been a few times when I have wondered to myself if it's all worth it... then I jump on the scales and see a 900 gram loss... of course it's all worth it- worth it to be healthier, worth it to feel more confident, worth it to look better, worth it to be proud of my achievements....

The clothes thing is becoming a bit of a problem for me.... Tops aren't so bad at the moment- those you can wear a bit bigger than they need to be and you can still get away with it (and I have lots of tops that I haven't worn for years that I can now wear), and jeans are no problem too, since I found that other pair last week, got the two pairs back from my bestie, and bought those bargain dark blue jeans.... but summer pants are the real problem... I have hardly any summer pants that I can wear. I have my 3/4 work pants, but I look like a drongo going out on a casual get together on weekends dressed in my work wear!!!!..... So hey- if anyone is throwing out size 14-16 clothes that are in reasonable condition, please think of me!!!! (The problem is twofold- firstly, for how many months there are left of summer, it hardly seems worth it, not to mention when I'm back in the USA for summer, I plan to be a smaller dress size again... and secondly I simply can't afford to be buying new clothes!).... I could just get around in by bathers and sarong I suppose!!!! lol...

Anyway- that's my week in a round about way!

Can't begin to tell you how proud I am of CG... WOW..........

-Sid-

Mental Challenge & A Reveal

2010-01-30T04:42:00.000-08:00

This week I lost 5 lbs! I am grateful but confused as I didn't exercise once this week. I have lost 27.5 lbs overall. I just 3.5 lbs shy of the halfway mark! I am following Sid's lead and for the first time ever telling my weight. For me this is the same as standing naked in front of you! But if I am going to be comfortable with my weight I want to stop treating it as the elephant in the room that no one talks about.

I am also hoping it will help me with my mental challenge. I have all my weight loss weigh in logs and I have noticed that right around this time I have stopped losing weight in the past. I am not really sure why and I don't want to have the same thing happen. I think part of the reason is that dedication starts to fail. It really isn't as much fun anymore to eat healthy all the time. I am starting to suffer from cravings for junk food. I have been battling a craving for Chinese food for 2 weeks now! I think I will wait until I break the 30 lb weight loss marker and then order a small meal.

Overall I am proud of myself and will continue to work as hard as I can to get totally healthy.

So since Sid jumped off the cliff I am running and leaping after her (thank you Sid for continuing to be an inspiration!)! I started this journey on 11/28 at 200 lbs. Today I weighed in at 173.5 lbs. My goal is to be 135-140 lbs by the end of this journey. My short term goal is to be at least 160 by June for the summer months.

I hope you all had good weeks in some way and I thank you all for coming along with us. It is very cathartic to be able to open my heart to you all each week!

Be healthy and happy everyone!

Pulled Chicken Barbecue Wrap

2010-01-26T09:15:00.000-08:00

I saw this one and think it sounds fabulous! I am going to try is next week.

1 c diet cola
1 c ketchup
1/4 c Worcestershire sauce
1 tsp hot pepper sauce, habanero-variety recommended
3 tbsp steak sauce
1 tsp dehydrated onion flakes
1 tsp garlic powder
1 1/2 lbs uncooked boneless, skinless chicken breast
1/8 tsp salt, or more
1/8 tsp black pepper, or more
4 medium whole wheat tortillas
1 c mixed greens

1. Preheat grill or broiler

2. Combine cola, worcestershire sauce, hot pepper sauce, steak sauce, onion flakes and garlic powder in a heavy saucepan; gradually bring to a boil over medium heat. Reduce heat slightly to obtain a gently simmer; simmer barbecue sauce until reduced by a quarter, about 6-8 minutes.

3. Meanwhile, start to prepare chicken. Season chicken with salt and pepper; grill or broil chicken until cooked through, about 5-6 minutes per side. Remove chicken from grill and pull apart into shredded bite-size pieces with 2 forks (so you don't burn your hands).

4. Combine chicken and barbecue sauce in a medium bowl; mix to evenly coat.

5. Divide chicken mixture among tortillas, spooning about 1 c of filling onto bottom half of each tortilla; top with mixed greens. Fold tortilla bottom over filling and then fold sides in toward center to enclose filling. Yields one wrap per serving.

Also mentioned for a change of pace, serve chicken mixture over mashed potatoes or rice.

For those following points:
6 points/serving
4 servings

Goodbye 800 grams!!

2010-01-23T18:27:00.000-08:00

And that's another 800 grams I hope to never see again!! Yep- I lost 800 grams!!! That's about 1.5lbs, and I'm pretty happy with that....

It's been an interesting week- a few cold mornings, and a few late nights resulted in no excercise for three days straight! It's been a while since I haven't done any exercise for that long... But I did buy a new pair of Asic Gels last weekend, and I have loved them every time I have put them on this week... It's like walking on a cloud!! My last pair were also Asic Gels, but I'd bought them in 2006 when I travelled around the world... I think I must have walked 50 miles in them just in New York!! Needless to say that in 3.5 years they'd seen a lot of the world, and in recent times walked the block many many times, and attended quite a few personal training sessions, and they just weren't offering the support I needed!!! (That sounds so funny- but you know what I mean). Also, they were literally starting to fall apart!! They say you should exercise for the equivalent to 500 kms or 500 miles (something like that) in a pair of sneakers- mine definitely did that and more... so they fared well!!! I have had sore shins this week though, and I'm hoping it's not because I got the cheaper of the Asics- I opted not to get the Duo Max, as they were another $60... The Duo Max offer anti roll, and a bit more arch support.... Maybe I'll have to save up to get an upgraded pair- perhaps I'll do that when I head to the USA mid year!

Temptations were in full swing this week... some delicious cookies at work.... lunches made for me that were scrumptious (and healthy) but didn't quite fit the standard meal profile that I follow.... and chocolate... and chocolate... and chocolate!!! Oh, and even some fresh licorice!!! I suppose I knew what I was doing, so perhaps I didn't indulge as much as I would have before I started on this weight loss journey?....

I also really pushed myself with my work outs this week, and changed my walks daily (I read somewhere that every now and then you should change your routine so that your body doesn't become too used to the activity that you are doing). One morning I ran the furthest I think I have ever run (that was the first morning I had my new Asics on!!); I had a walking buddy one morning, which was loads of fun.... we ran a little of the way, but mostly walked; the next morning I ran even further than the morning that I thought was the furthest I'd ever run!!! That morning I ran and ran and ran (okay, well I jogged and jogged and jogged is probably a better way to describe it!!), then walked a bit, then jogged and jogged and jogged... you get the picture!!! We had some tough work outs at training as well.... I am really enjoying the training. And this weekend I have walked for over an hour each morning, taking a gravel track for part of it, that has some inclines and declines as well...

I have had a niggling knee thing going on this week- it's a bit stiff and 'clicky'.... I've decided to start having fish oil tablets, since I don't really eat seafood, and apparently the fish oil is good for your joints... maybe that will make a difference. I don't think I've ever spoken about vitamins and that kind of thing on the blog- each day I take a women's multi vitamin, a B complex and Magnesium... and now fish oil... I was taking them 7 days a week, but have decided to have a rest from them on the weekends- I don't know if there is any benefit in doing that, but I figure the tablets will last longer, saving me a few dollars, and my body will be more ready for them at the beginning of each week!!! If anyone knows of any great vitamins to be taking, particularly to support weight loss, or great health, I'd love to hear about it....

My best friend told me this week that she thinks I'm losing my 'bum' (my butt for the US followers!!)... And the girls at personal training are still ranting on about how thin I'm looking.... I weigh 92.3kg (203lbs), so I think they're all going a bit overboard... but it does make me feel better!!!

Some friends on facebook have been commenting that they think I'm looking great too... I am not sure how this can be since I've really only posted head shots lately, but they say they can see it in my face... And my flat mate (who is sadly moving out- so if anyone knows someone in Melbourne looking for a room to rent, send them my way!!) who I haven't seen in months said he could see it in my face and neck.... It really is nice to get the compliments... I just hope my belly disappears soon- that's the area I hate the most (and my boobs!!!)....

CG shared a great link with me this week- I want to share it with you all too (I hope you don't mind CG)... http://www.weightwatchers.com/util/art/index_art.aspx?tabnum=1&art_id=525&sc=3047
This article really rings true for the both of us.... we can really relate.

It's been another tough week financially, with the notification that my flat mate is moving out only adding to the problem... I think I may be suffering from some depression around this, which is probably the reason for the chocolate binging.... So the answer is that I have to do something about it right?? I have some ideas in mind, the first being to apply for some jobs that are a bit more challenging, and more in my duties and salaries expectations.... I haven't done my tax yet (no comments on that please- I know it's crazy late)- but that money will go straight to my cruise (that I'm going on in November- just another incentive to lose weight!!!) and the rest on the credit card! I cannot let these money problems give me a reason to binge eat, as it only makes me feel worse.... If anyone has any ideas to help me avoid that, I'd love to hear those too!

It's Australia Day on Tuesday, so a public holiday. I think I'll be having a bbq lunch that day- so hope to fill up on salads!! And I'll only have one personal training session because of the public holiday, so will have to make the most of the morning walks... I'm seeing a life coach on Wednesday night too... will be very interesting to see what comes out of that (I'm hoping that it will be a really positive experience). And it's my bestie's hubby (who I also consider a bestie)'s 30th on the weekend... so lots to look forward to...

I've been cooking meals, and freezing them in hope that the control over portion sizes will aid in some extra weight loss.... Hopefully I'll have another great result next week. Hope you all have a great week too.

-Sid-

Oh, and another thing... I'm competing in a 'Human Race' for charity!! It's going to be like a mini Amazing Race... Here's the link to what we are doing. If you feel that it's a cause you'd like to donate to, we'd appreciate the support, as would the charities. http://www.gofundraise.com.au/singletons

Photos for the comp.... Application below!

2010-01-23T18:20:00.000-08:00

I've entered a weight loss competition- read my application!

2010-01-23T17:37:00.000-08:00

Okay, so a magazine that I have a subscription for (That's Life for the Aussie followers) had advertised a competition on their website, looking for people that are wanting to lose weight. I thought there would be no harm in entering.... I showed CG my application, and asked her if I should share it on our blog, and she thought that was a great idea!!!

So, in an act of boldness, not only am I going to share my application letter with the blogging world, as well as the photos that I sent in.... That's the bold part... There are two photos in particular that I am so ashamed of (in that, how on earth did I ever allow myself to look like this), and two that I love (naturally they are head shots, not body shots!!!)...

The magazine is a mag that only publishes reader's stories, so it's pretty light hearted. The link to the comp is
http://www.thatslife.com.au/article.asp?ArticleID=2853&Pid=1
If anyone else enters, I'd love to see your applications too!!! Gives us a bit of an insight into what makes us tick I suppose.... Below is my application:

"Hi That's Life,

I was checking out the recent stories on your website and came across the article about you guys wanting to help people lose weight.

I'm a 34 year old single girl, who has battled with weight for what seems like forever. As a kid I would get picked on for being bigger than everyone else- ironic really, because when I look back on photos of when I was a kid, I think I looked pretty normal!!!

About eight years ago or so, I went to Weight Watcher's to lose weight. I was about 83kg when I went there, and was feeling pretty bad about myself. I lost 13 kgs and was a size 10-12, and wearing the clothes I fit into when I was 18 and 21 years old!!! A great feeling.... I was 70kg and only 2kg off what Weight Watcher's told me was the top of the weight range for my height (about 165cm)- those extra 2kg just wouldn't come off, so I gave up Weight Watchers. The last seven or so years have been a journey of putting all that weight on, plus more. In October 2009, I weighed in at 100.1 kgs and realised it was time to do something. I have been a size 18 for at least four to five years. (Not to mention that my father has been recently diagnosed with type 2 diabetes, and had to have his little toe removed- I really don't want that to happen to me)....

I didn't really want to do fad diets (I remember in high school only eating apples for a few weeks to make a few kilos budge- what on earth was I thinking??), and I don't have much money, so can't afford to do any of the fancy weight loss clubs or things like 'lite n easy'. So I decided to go it alone.

I've found a personal trainer who does group training sessions, and if I pay for five I get one free. At $10 a class, they're about as much as I can afford. I've also started walking, and am at a stage where I can run for part of that, each morning. I am now 93kg and a size 16.

I've used facebook to gain encouragement from a wide range of people- those that know me well and see me all the time, to those that I haven't seen in 20 years or so!!! Through that I have discovered a large amount of people that also want to lose weight, and one in particular that wanted to go on the journey with me. She lives in the USA, where I was an exchange student- we knew each other in high school from when I was there (18.5 years ago!!!)... We've started a blog together that we write about our challenges and successes in, and we have a small following of friends through that too.

But, my problem has been that although over the years I have kept up some activity (mostly dance classes), I over eat, and I eat bad things, and I blame a busy lifestyle on the fast foods that I put down my throat. I'm much better now, but I am only losing about 200 or 300 grams a week, and would really like to be losing more. On top of that, I am terrified that it's only a matter of time until I fall off the bandwagon again.... I really do not want to fail this time- so all the help I can get will be of benefit to me- this I am certain of.

I am single, and have been since 2001 (with the exception of a few non serious relationships here and there), and I know that it's my own image issues that have been in the way of me meeting someone special. I'm not getting any younger, and I don't want to end up and old spinster because I battled with the fact that I am fat my whole life (and who would love a fat person, right?)....

Anyway- I have attached a picture of me- one in my swimsuit, that is from this summer, and was taken as my 'before' shot (even though this is actually after I'd lost 6 kg!!), and I've put in a headshot. People tell me that I am pretty- but it's 'pretty' hard to believe that when all you see in yourself are the rolls around your middle, and tree trunk legs....

I'd love to hear back from you. I don't know what you have in mind for the winners of this competition. But as long as it doesn't cost me much money, and it's a plan that can fit in with a single person's lifestyle, I'd be really appreciative for the chance to give it a go! Hope to hear from you."

So I'll let you know if I am contacted by That's Life...... All the help and support I/we can get, is only going to make this journey an easier one.... and I think that when we all look back on this time, it will be with smiles, and with happy memories.... because we did this together.... I think it's even more incentive to make this journey a life long one, rather than a quick fix one... The support and happy memories and the good feeling about this journey are what's going to help embed it as a journey that is going to give us life long results.... "FOREVER".

-Sid-

My First Gain.. And It's Okay

2010-01-23T05:47:00.001-08:00

This week was really a hard week in the whole package in my life. Just one of those weeks where nothing seems to go quite right. I posted about my daughter being sick (she just went back to school yesterday) and then I got sick. This led to a week of not really eating the way I should and no exercise. (Dogs were giving me the evil look)I felt like the good year blimp knowing that I was not doing what I was supposed to do. I was sure I had gained 5 lbs and was mad at myself for getting rid of all those bigger clothes last weekend.

Well guess what? All my clothes still fit and I only gained 2 lbs! That might sound like a contradiction to be glad you gained 2 lbs. I am not glad I gained but glad it was only 2 lbs and not more. Glad that my clothes still fit, glad that I CAN do this even when it is tough. It is unrealistic to expect that I will never have a gain for the rest of my life. This has almost rejuvenated me to jump back even harder than before and luckily I am starting to feel better. As is always the case I need to be a little nicer to myself.

I want to celebrate some of the positive things that happened this week. I went to the my endocrinologits (I have Hashimoto's, and underactive thyroid) and he was congratulated me on losing weight. My cholesterol is great. They want it to be under 200 and mine is 120! My blood pressure 135/77. That was a little higher than I would have liked but I had caffeine and sodium this week so not surprising. I also had several people at work notice that I am losing weight! Hmm.. could they have read last week's post? Hope so...:-)

So this week is dedicated to hitting it harder than ever and not losing control. I hope you all had a good week!

Curvy Girl

Feed a Cold (and a recipe)

2010-01-18T06:28:00.001-08:00

My daughter came home on Saturday saying she didn't feel good. I thought that it was from the sleepover the night before and didn't think anything of it. Then the fever started and the no eating. When she cut a shopping trip done early and passed on seeing "New Moon" (her fave movie!) one more time I knew she was sick.

I was tired but I had walked three dogs, shopped, seen a movie and was running with errands until 10pm. Seemed normal to me. I got up yesterday feeling very tired and achy. Much to my dogs dismay I passed on walking them in favor of laying around most of the day. I don't lay around.. it bores me. But I pulled my big furry blanket to the couch and lay there all day long. (all right.. I bathed the dogs but that was it)I was SOOOOOO hungry all day long but yet nothing was making me feel better. I ate a ton of stuff! They say feed a cold and let me tell you I did. I even broke my 2 month no caffeine rule and had some cola. It bothers me that this happened but as Sid has pointed out I don't think average people worry about stuff like this. As long as I don't do it all the time I will be okay. I am making good progress and I am allowed to indulge sometimes.. especially when I don't feel good.

The fever hit today but I will be back on track with eating and I WILL walk tonight. It won't be a race but something is better than nothing.

And now for the recipe! This sounds so scrumptious! I got if off the Weight Watchers website. If you make it let me know how it is. It is on my list of things to try!

Apple Braised Chicken

2 tsp vegetable oil
1 lb uncooked boneless, skinless chicken breast (4 four oz pieces)
2 tbsp all-purpose flour
1 large onion sliced
2 medium apples, firm, cored and sliced
1 c apple cider
1 c fat-free chicken broth
1/2 tsp table salt
1/2 tsp ground ginger
2 tsp cornstarch

1. In a large, heavy bottomed skillet, warm oil over high heat. Toss chicken with flour in a medium bowl, patting off excess. Place chicken in skillet and brown well on both sides. Remove chicken from pan and set aside.

2. Reduce stove temperature to low and add onion to skillet. Saute, stirring often, until onion is tender and lightly browned.

3. Stir in apples, cider, chicken broth, salt ginger and chicken. Bring to a simmer, cover and cook for 30 minutes. Use a slotted spoon to transfer chicken, onions and apples to a serving dish.

4. In a small bowl, whisk together the corn starch and 2-3 tablespoons of pan juices. Combine cornstarch mixture with remaining pan juices, whisking constantly. Simmer for one minute. Pour sauce over chicken and serve.

Yields 1 chicken breast and about 3/4 cup of apple-onion mix per person. (5 points)

Flavor Booster: Pears and chicken are an appealing combination. Substitute 2 ripe Bartlett or Comice pears, peeled, cored and diced for the apples, 1 cup sparking pear cider for the apple cider and 1/4 teaspoon ground nutmeg for the ginger.

A loss is a loss!!!

2010-01-16T22:55:00.000-08:00

A loss IS a loss!! This week I lost 300 grams (about half a pound).... It's not a big loss, which seems to be my specialty!!! But it is a loss- and I vow to never let that 300 grams find me again!!!

Seriously though, I was just thinking about these tiny losses that I've been having.... There are times when it bums me a little- I mean, I'd LOVE to be losing big numbers, but then I got thinking, and I have not gained weight since I started, so really, I'm on the right track... The small losses might make the journey a longer one for me, but hey- as long as the outcome is a smaller, happier, healthier me, then I say bring it on!!

I was hoping for another decent week like last week, my best friend thought the same.... But then as I wrote in my last entry, money has been tight, so realistically I wasn't able to eat the same variety I would usually.... One of the girls at work even made me lunch one day, and bought in a week worth of snacks for me this week.... They were foods that fit in with the diet- she's very concious and supportive of what I'm doing- so that did help to give me some variation in my eating this week....

But I just did a big grocery shop.... so I should be set for the next couple of weeks at least... I was excited to find a box of bircher style muesli, which I can't wait to sample.... And I think this week I'm going to make and freeze a vegetarian stir fry type meal, as well as something with meat and vegies in the slow cooker.... That way, I can portion control my meals for probably the next two weeks or so- as well as giving me instant meals without having to think about them too much.... this in itself is 'milestone' thinking for me- I am not usually one to cook and freeze food!!!

Last night I discovered a new bar/restaurant in the city- it's a rooftop bar (my favourite type) and it's called The Tuscan Bar- they made awesome sangrias, and we ate tappas and antipasto for dinner, followed by Affogato for dessert (and I wonder why I didn't lose a lot of weight this week!!!) Seriously though, when I first decided that I was going to put in a lot of effort to lose weight, and I started this journey, I was afraid almost to go out to eat.... Now I just chose carefully.... And prepare in advance- ie watch what I eat during the day, drink a bit more water that day than usual, try not to snack between meals so much if I'm going out, do a harder work out than usual.... etc etc.... And to tell you the truth- it makes me feel 'normal'!!! (if there is such a thing!!)... I mean, isn't that what people without weight issues do???

Anyway- my 300 grams today brings me to exactly 7 kgs lost since my first weigh in back in late October. (7kg = approx 15.4 lbs). For the sake of being open and honest, I now weigh 93.1kg (approx 205 lbs)..... I still have nearly triple that to go- but I'm on my weigh, and feeling good about it...

Out to dinner again tonight, but that should be it for this week.... so I should be able to really stay on track with eating... and excercising... Wish me luck for a great weight loss week.... (I bought new sneakers today- so definitely no excuses re excercise this week- after all I have to wear them in!!!)...
Yesterday I had lunch with my best friend (this must be confusing! I have a few best friends! For the sake of this blog, yesterday was with Bestie S). She's pregnant, due in six weeks, and quite a while ago, I leant her some clothes of mine- the smaller ones... Yesterday she gave me a lot of them back- my favourite size 12 outfit (which I cannot wait to get back on!!), my favourite size 14 (a very small 14 I might add) jacket, and two pairs of size 16 jeans that I bought probably well over 5 years ago....

I didn't think any of it would fit- I mean although I'm a size 16 now, I've been convinced that sizings have got a bit bigger since I was last a 16!! But alas- both pairs fit like a glove.... It's like I have two new pairs of jeans (even though they were already mine to start with!!!)... And the jacket fit in the back and arms, but is a long way from being buttoned up- but that's okay too!!! So exciting!!! And did I mention that I too went through my wardrobe... I haven't thrown any clothes out yet (as I'm still wearing some of them until it's impossible to any more), but I did try on old clothes that I haven't worn in years- and to my surprise and delight, they fit!!!! (Being a hoarder is paying off a bit right now!!!)

Well, my new vision is to have arms like Jennifer Aniston- it will probably take years of training and hard work- but I'd love to have little skinny arms that have muscle definition- not like a body builder, but just like a person who looks after themselves... And I really want to lose the flabby tummy.... So I think I may have to challenge myself to do more crunches outside of training days!!!

Enjoy the week all.... :)

Today I Celebrate Me

2010-01-16T08:04:00.001-08:00

What a week it has been! There has been STRESS all over the place and I was really feeling worried about the scales this week as I indulged in some extra healthy foods again.

Last night I had some alone time I so decided to clear the closet of bigger clothes that I need to get rid of. Boy was I surprised when half my closet wound up on the floor! Some of it was sad as there were things I had only worn once but that is tempered by the fact that I look better and I had saved some smaller clothes so I don't have to go buy a whole new wardrobe yet!

I lost 3 lbs this week! It was a success and thankfully I am not letting the stress trigger any binges. I am an emotional eater and stress usually would send me to chocolate and other lovely tasting things in large quantities. I grocery shopped after work last night before dinner and I was SOOOO hungry that everything in the store looked good and I wanted to eat it. So I made a deal with myself. I put it in my cart and if at the end before I checked out I still wanted it I would get it. Everything went back because it was just an impulse and not a true hunger.

I have basically gone down a whole size in clothes now. I lose faster on top than I do the bottom which is a frustration to me but there are so many things about my body I am liking better. My booty looks pretty perky right now. Nice waist is getting tinier and my hips are getting curvier in a good way. I have not been this thin since April of 2008! I do have fabulous cheekbones when I am at a good weight and I am starting to see signs of them. I feel just a little more confident than I did before and now at least I have clothes that I would feel good in if I go out.

I have run into the opposite of Sid in that people in my daily life haven't said really that they have noticed I have lost weight. Here's a tip for everyone.. NO ONE gets mad if you say they look like they have lost weight. Don't go overboard and say they look so much better now (cuz I looked like crap before?) but acknowledgement is a tool also.

I am eager to hear some of your stories, triggers and tips. You guys are really helping Sid and I just by knowing you read our blog. So keep following and sign up for automatic updates. Let us know if there is something that you want more of in the blog!

I will add a recipe later this week. Apple Braised Chicken!

Curvy Girl

Who Says Men Don't Notice?!!!

2010-01-15T03:43:00.000-08:00

So the week has passed by so quickly.... My weekly weigh in just two mornings away!! That's two mornings, a lunch with a friend, and a dinner with another friend away!!! lol.... I'm hoping that after last week's 1kg loss, that I can 'pull' another great number this week. I actually feel really good about my eating and excercising this week.... but the scales will tell the story on Sunday morning!!!

It's funny- 2009 was a real 'shake things up' kind of year for me. I went from being a well paid professional, to a crappy paid administrator.... Something that for the last 4 months or so has been a godsend! But now the financial burden is really starting to take it's toll, and my stress levels are paying the price... I know I'll be okay in the end... But the funny part, is that in the past I would likely have opted for high carbs, over eating, chocolate indulging, even a night of binge drinking (or two) ..... but the other day I was pondering my current predicament, and I actually caught myself saying to myself "Well at least I have my weight loss journey"!!! Amazing.... could I be well on the way to a complete change of thinking!!! I really am enjoying the excercise, the healthier eating.... I had a couple of cookies today, and an ice-cream tonight at the movies, and I actually felt like a normal person who has eaten well during the day, has excercised, and who had nothing to feel guilty about in enjoying those few things.... This could nearly be a first for me!!

A couple of blogs ago, I mentioned that I was thinking of buying a vibration machine.... I got talking to Kelly (my Personal Trainer) and she told me that it is legitimately much better for you to do resistance training, and the impact that resistance training will have on your body will way out-do any results that a vibration machine would give you.... So there's my answer!! Just continue doing what I'm doing!!! lol...

I also have been meaning to share this for a while.... I read on a friend's facebook page, that to burn off the calories from eating ONE m&m you would have to run the length of an American Football Field!!!! OMG- can you believe that.... I nearly died.... Although it's a fact that hasn't necessarily been at the forefront of my mind when I have the opportunity to sample a chocolate- it's something that I have put enough thought into that it has deterred me from time-to-time from eating something I shouldn't!!!! A WHOLE length of a football field... ONE m&m!!! Amazing!

Now, I am proud to say with confidence that I am officially a size 16 all over. I mentioned a couple of blogs ago that I'd dropped a dress size (from an 18 to a 16) but I hadn't really put it to the test.... I have since tried more clothes on, and have also gone back through my wardrobe to pull out clothes I haven't worn in years- and yippee, the hard work must be paying off!!!

In addition to that, I have been recieving more compliments this week... Which is making me feel great.

The girls at my training group seem the most surprised. I didn't see any of them for the two weeks over Christmas and New Year, last week they all commented that I looked like I'd lost weight, but this week they seem to be gobsmacked by the transformation.... I think they may be exagerating a bit, but it's nice all the same!!

My best friend told me my fingers looked thinner.... At the time I didn't really think she was onto anything with that, but today I noticed that my rings were feeling a bit looser on my finger- so maybe they are thinning down!!!!

But the best compliment of the week came from one of the guys at work. He too is seeing a trainer, who sounds more like a boot camp marshall than a trainer, and he said to me "Well it's obvious that you've lost a fair bit of weight"!!! And they say that guys don't notice these things!!! That comment really made me smile!

All the compliments are not wasted on me- they really mean so much.... and at the moment they spur me on, and I find I think about them for extra motivation. In saying that, when I'm wearing clothes I sometimes catch myself thinking that I can see the difference, but I'm also still telling myself that I might just be imagining it.... Sadly, when I am without clothes on, I don't really see any difference.... Perhaps this is where I really need to work on my own self image issues.... I have to admit, I am terrified of getting to around 70kg and still seeing the me I am today in the mirror- the flabby arms, the rolls/folds of skin, the jelly belly, the celulite legs, the saggy boobs etc....

Anyway, I've been continuing with the interval training, and am slowly noticing that I can run further and further each interval as I go on.... I can imagine myself being able to fun a few kilometres or more in a few months if I keep this up! I like to do fun runs, but I always walk them, maybe later in the year I might be able to run them- now that's something to aspire towards!!

Well, I'll let you know how the scales treat me on Sunday. In the meantime, have a great weekend!!

Don't Just Follow Us, SUBSCRIBE As Well!!!

2010-01-15T03:26:00.000-08:00

Hi All!

Another balmy night here Down Under! And it struck me that we should probably let you all know that our blog has been modified. CG, who is the whiz behind the making of the actual page, has now added a 'SUBSCRIBE' button. You should see it on the left of the page.

As you may, or may not know, CG and I live on opposite sides of the world. Back (in what seems like a million years ago) I was an exchange student, and went to high school with CG. Through modern technology and the wonders of social networking sites (let's face it- it was facebook!!!) we have reconnected.

Ironically, we ended 2009 in a very similar circumstance. We'd both decided, quite adamantly, that we wanted to get healthy and lose weight- not for the short term, but for life. It's no secret that making big lifestyle changes can be tough, but it's always easier when you make them with someone else..... So together we made a pact that we would go on this journey together, and as a follow on to that "Two Friends Journey" was born!

The idea behind "Two Friends Journey" was for us to have an outlet to share what we are going through, with each other, with other people, with ourselves, and to also hopefully spur some interest from people who might be going on a similar journey, or who would like to offer us extra support as we work to changing our lives for the better and for the long term.

By SUBSCRIBING to our blog, you will recieve emails to let you know when the blog has been updated, so that you can see what we've been up to, without having to check every once and a while! And hopefully give you more of an opportunity to join in chats with us, offer advice, comment on our blogs, check out CGs recipes, or websites we share etc.....

So please, join up to follow us- the more the merrier!! But don't forget to SUBSCRIBE as well.....

And I can't finish without saying- thank you so much for reading this- it means so much to both of us. The blog is something we both look forward to sharing with everyone so much these days, and has become a really important part of our journey!

Feeling Good Today!

2010-01-11T06:53:00.001-08:00

I got up this morning feeling like I wanted to dress up a little. I have the GREAT pencil skirt that I have only worn twice because it was too tight and uncomfortable. I tried it on and it was too big. I added the belt it came with.. not enough holes to make it tight enough. I dug out my other skirt.. too big. I was doing the happy dance at 5am this morning! All I had was a wrap dress in the very back of the closet. It is too big but because it is a wrap dress I just wrapped it and tied it tighter.. accentuates my waist nicely! For the first time in years I am adding a picture of me full body. It isn't the best picture but a big step our for me and I feel so good today I am ready to share. I have a LONG way to go but have come a long way and even if I didn't lose another pound (which I will) I have succeeded!

Oh new dark blue jeans, how I love the!!! (And other stories from my week!)

2010-01-11T00:52:00.000-08:00

Well, what a week it's been!

On Monday night I was shouted to dinner (ie had dinner paid for me) by an old friend- it was a perfect night, we headed to the beach, and had dinner at a beachside restaurant and watched the sun set- sounds romantic, but there were no single men in sight (the universe needs to work on that one for me!)- I opted for a lamb salad for dinner.... then we walked.... then we indulged in a little gelati! Yum yum....

On Wednesday night it was my best friend's birthday. We had noodles from the noodle shop for dinner. I opted for rice noodles (lower GI) and asked for less noodles and more vegetables, and also opted for a vegetarian option... Delicious... And FILLING!!! And yet I still made room for a small piece of strawberry mousse birthday cake- it was SOOOOOOO good!!!

On Saturday night, we had a big group of 25 or so go to the RSL at the Beach for dinner.... I had pork steaks with mashed potatoes, snow peas, and salad.... I gave the fries away! Another filling meal!!

So with all that eating out- and you may recall my depression eating of the lindt balls after I found out I'd hardly lost any centimetres from my body last week- you can imagine my thrill in seeing the scales tell me this morning that I had lost 1kg (2.2lb) from last week. As you know, Sunday is my regular weigh in day, but I spent the weekend at the beach again, so had a Monday morning weigh again!

This week I've really given the interval training a go. The first morning I tried it, I wore my slimming belt (or "not-so-slimming" belt as I have become accustomed to calling it, seeing it makes me look huge when I'm wearing it!!! lol) and my pants kept falling down!!!! It didn't take long for me to get annoyed with that and just go back to normal walking. But the second day I tried the interval training (without the belt, my pants stayed up!!!) I loved it! It took 8 minutes off my usual half hour walking route, which meant that I had some time spare to jump on the Wii for some steps and hula hoops!!!

I've been alternating walking and interval training since- and it feels really good... I think the interval training will really boost my strength and fitness levels- when I'm doing it, I can actually imagine myself being able to run the whole distance in the future!!

So the thrill of one whole kilogram lost is awesome, and it comes after a week of some real ego boosting compliments!!

First compliment:
One of my best buddies was walking behind me, and told me that my butt was looking great!!

Second compliment:
The same friend told me she was jeallous of me when she saw me in my swimsuit.... Let's face it, I still do NOT look good in a swimsuit, but her comment was that she could really tell that I had lost weight, and thought it was particularly noticible in my legs and hips! :)

Third compliment:
When we stay at the beach, we stay in a caravan park that has a toilet/shower block. I was in there one morning in my walking gear, and was leaning over the basin (since this is an honest blog, I was squeezing a zit- and YES, at 34 I still get the horrid little suckers- my mother lied when she told me that once I was out of my teens I'd never get pimples again!!!), anyway- I was leaning over the basin, and I didn't see one of my friends walk in- she saw me- but she didn't realise it was me until she saw me later in the same outfit... She said she initially looked at me from behind and thought it was me, but then said to herself "That's not her butt"!!!! Lovin' it!!

Fourth compliment:
When we go out for dinner when we're staying at the beach, we go out of our way to get a little dressed up (since most days we lounge around in our swimsuits and civies). I wore my new size 16 jeans, with a strapless black top, and low strappy heals, with a green beaded necklace. I had my hair down. One of the older guys who has a caravan opposite, but that faces away from us, was walking towards us, I had my back to him, and he said "Wow, who's that sexy chick in those dark blue jeans?"!!! I turned around and thanked him for such a lovely compliment, and he told me they looked FANTASTIC!!!!!

Whoever would have thought that losing just less than 7kg would result in such great compliments.... I have to admit, today I caught myself in the mirror and thought it looked like perhaps my shoulders have slimmed down- but I don't see it that much anywhere else- but then hey, I look at myself every day- right?!!

I took my 'before' picture this weekend... Oh what a wake up call.... A wake up call that in my next summer (which lucky for me will be in less than 6 months!!!) I will NOT look the way I do now..... I accept that the backs of my knees may never really be lovely to look at, and that the celulite may never go away, but the size is going to be smaller.... I promise myself that!

I had another moment worthy of blogging when we were at dinner at the RSL. One of the girls got a huge slice of mars bar cake for desert- she couldn't eat all of it, and asked if I wanted any.... I knew I didn't want it, but couldn't resist the tempation to have a small taste... One of the other girls bailed me up, and in a stern voice asked me if it was worth it, and why did I go on my walk that morning if I was going to have some of that cake.... Being a smart alec, I told her I walked so that I could have that small taste of cake.... Later I got thinking about it though, and I realised that I was lying.... I went walking that morning to be healthy and to lose weight... I went for a taste of that cake because I struggle to resist temptations.... Two days later, I couldn't even tell you or explain to you what that tiny sample of cake (by tiny I mean not even a teaspoon size) tasted like... so was it worth it??? NO.... I know that a tiny piece of cake like that would probably not alter the scales- but I can't even really give you a good reason why I had to try it!! Just another thing I have to work on!!!!

Again, last week, my personal training sessions ended up being one-on-ones as noone else showed up- so I had some huge work outs!!

I'm so excited that people seem to be seeing a change in me- and people who have not been provoked to say something nice!!! lol... I'm always up and down- but today I feel rather UP (although tired from the 43 degree celcius day - I think that's about 115 degrees farenheit!) and I'm excited about the next week.... It would be SO awesome to lose another kilogram!!

You may also notice that the blog page has been updated- you can now subscribe to the blog, which will mean that you will get email notifications when the blog has been updated! Hopefully this will help our lovely friends and followers to keep track of where we're at, and offer us some tips, support, advice, comments, etc along the way!

And with that, over and out! :)

This Week Was Hard (and a recipe)

2010-01-09T03:22:00.001-08:00

Usually I look forward to weigh in day each week. This week not so much.. I knew that it wasn't going to be as promising as previous. I lost half a pound this week. I believe there were a couple of reasons for that.

1. It only takes your body about 20 days to adjust to what you are currently doing and it won't have as much impact. I am very tight on time with being a single mom responsible for the house and 3 dogs. Walking the dog daily is my main form of exercise. Does anyone have some quick ways to add to my exercise routine that will give me a boost? I am adding Jillian Michaels on the Wii (she is a goddess!) but I find my calves hurt after all the running. I eat bananas every day but if you have other suggestions to help with this I would appreciate it.

2. Hi, my name is Curvy Girl and I am an emotional eater. This week was VERY stressful for me. There is a person missing at work who I had to pick up for, the snow because my car is a moving death trap in it and I drive 50 miles round trip every day for work and my daughter had some problems this week. I ate more than I should have and didn't track it all. I am proud that normally I would have bought a bag of chips and then wondered how I got to the bottom but this week I ate extra oyster crackers and sometimes didn't eat all my points for the day. Not eating enough can cause your body to hold onto what you have just in case of emergencies.

3. The weather had a major impact due to walking the dog. I have been pretty dedicated even with winter but it was majorly cold this week and we can't go as long as normal. I went one day and cut it short after I couldn't feel the skin under my eyes (yes I had on a scarf). The snow is a blessing and a curse. It makes the walk harder on me due to trudging through all the inches of snow but after falling and hurting my wrist I am nervous because I can't see the ice. I have slipped but not fallen 3 times since I hurt my wrist.

4. The last item is almost the most important to me. I have written about trying to be more positive and kind to my body and not passing on my issues to my daughter. This week it was really brought home to me that I have already done that in a way but I WILL reverse it. My daughter was rubbing my back and she told me "Good job mom! You're back feels smaller, only a little flab there.". I knew her intention was to compliment me on my success so far but she has no idea that the word flab is not nice. Why? Because I talk about my "flab", "fat", "disgusting stomach", and other not nice words. I wouldn't say these things to others in a million years or let her say them to others but I said them out loud to myself enough that she has accepted them as normal body words. This is how this cycles get started huh?

So this week was hard but I was talking to Sid and she reminded me that this is one week in many weeks to come. Puts it in perspective huh? (Sid you are so smart!) I tend to get bogged down in the race and loose focus on the journey but I am back on track and more determined than ever.

Sid and I are doing a photo shoot this summer when we get together face to face in our bathing suits. You guys have any other suggestions? We are trying to keep fun things out there to help with our motivation.

The recipe is a WW and delicious! I am trying to keep them simple because I hate taking too much time or having to buy a million ingredients. If you want more complex recipes let me know. I chose chocolate this week because really who can't use that sometimes? Enjoy and let me know how you like and send us your recipes!

Chocolate Marshmallow Fudge
1 2/3 c sugar
2/3 c fat free evaporated milk
2 tbsp reduced calorie margarine
2 oz semi-sweet chocolate, chopped (about 1 1/2 cups)
14 large marshmallows

1. Coat an 8x8 inch pan with cooking spray
2. Stir together the sugar, evaporated milk, and margarine. Bring to a boil in a sauce pan, reduce heat to medium-low and cook 3 minutes, stirring constantly.
3. Stir in chocolate and marshmallows. Remove from heat and stir until smooth.
4. Pour into pan and refrigerate until firm, about 2 hours. Cut into 36 squares and serve. (Leave fudge in refrigerator or freezer for a firmer consistency)

1 point per square

Excercise.......

2010-01-05T03:32:00.000-08:00

Well, one of the things that I am really starting to enjoy, and that I am pretty proud of myself for, is excercise!

Over the Christmas/New Year period, I walked every day (accept last Sunday). I did a power, serious walk first thing each morning, and then while we were at the beach, we'd walk to the shops each day (probably only a 2km round trip, strolling- but it all counts). AND I maintained two personal training sessions each week.

After dropping those dress sizes, I want to go to PT every night!!! Wish I could afford it.... I've fairly much decided that I am going to register with the local netball stadium to be listed as a fill in player- hopefully it will mean some extra exercise in a new environment, new opportunities to meet new people, and hopefully some cheap excercise too (as often the team will pay for a fill in)... (Netball is an Australian game similar to basketball, but with no travelling- google it for more info!!)...

I've bought some things to help me get more out of my walks- I have bought wrist and ankle weights. I can't seem to keep the ankle weights on (the velcro comes undone) so I'm going to have to find a solution to that one. But the wrist weights are great- and I think they actually contributed to me being able to do stronger push ups at training!! I also bough a slimming belt. It's an elasticised belt (made out of a material somewhat like wetsuit material I guess), and the idea is that it keeps the heat in while you are working out, it makes you sweat more in that area, and in turn makes you lose the centimetres!! I hope it does just that.... I really hate my flabby belly!!! So far, you barely notice you are wearing it, but when you take it off, it's incredible to see how much it makes you sweat!!

I've been contemplating buying a vibration machine. I've heard some good things about them- but then I read an article that suggests that there is no scientific proof that they really make a difference, and that you are best to just do regular excercise..... then again, I also heard that 10 minutes on a vibration machine is equivalent to an hour in the gym- that to me sounds like excellent time management (of course in addition to the excercise I'm already doing).... Would love feedback if anyone has any about vibration machines!!

Tonight at training, Kelly got me doing some core strength excercises followed by some interval cardio.... She had me running up and down stairs for 40 seconds, follow by 20 seconds of catching my breath. We repeated this ten times. All up ten minutes. And wow- did I work up a sweat and was out of breath!!! Kelly said that interval training was one of the best ways to burn fat. She assures me that if I do 2 or 3 interval sessions on a half hour walk a week, I will see the difference much quicker. I'm going to give it a go! I'm going to chose a some visual targets and run between them, then walk at a slower pace between the next two targets, then run, then walk etc (you get the picture)- you build up a sweat much quicker working out this way too.... your heart rate going up and down...

Kelly keeps telling me that she'll get me down below 70kgs- that would be so amazing- imagine if I exceeded my own expectations of myself in that way- what a huge accomplishment and what an awesome feeling that would be!!!

She's running a six week challenge- the winner getting a free personal training session. She's give us a food plan, and tips etc.... I haven't done too much about it yet- but hope to join in the best I can... need to do a grocery shop to really get the best out of it. But am looking forward to partaking in this challenge, and seeing how the others go (that Kelly trains)!!

CG and I are going to be meeting up mid year, and have spoken about doing a photo shoot- infact a swimsuit shoot. We're both going to take before shots in our swimsuits as well... it will be very interesting... We're thinking we may get professional photos taken!! So much fun- and definitely incentive to make sure that the next six months are successful!!! I have found a swimsuit I'm in love with. It comes in white or black. Naturally I think go black, but the white looks stunning, and may be the way to go. My trainer says BUY IT NOW!! Maybe I should.... Check it out: http://www.carlaswimwear.com.au/shop/product.php?productid=298&cat=20&page=1
CG thinks I should get it now.... what do you all thinK?!!

With websites in mind now that I posted that link, I've been meaning to share a website I have come across. I haven't maximised it's functionality yet- but it's a brilliant tool. The website is http://www.calorieking.com.au/
You can put in almost any food and it will tell you how many calories are in it. You can plan meals so you know how many calories you'll be eating. They even have the Calorie King University, so that you can be educated in being healthy etc.... If yoiu check it out, let me know what you think!!

Being in a bad mood tonight, I found myself self sabotaging... ironically I was in control... but sabotaging all the same.... I indulged in some chocolate.... I'm not down on myself about it, but I still wonder what it is in me that makes me do that to myself.... I need to do some serious self image work this year.... afterall, this journey is for life- I want a long life, as a person who isn't always chasing a weight loss goal! I read something in the paper on the weekend that said "eat to live, not live to eat"- how true.... that may be my slogan from now on!

Anyway, I think you're now all updated on where I'm at!!

Have a wonderful week! :)

The Good, The Bad, And The Ugly!!

2010-01-05T02:50:00.000-08:00

Happy New Year!! Bring on 2010- I'm so excited for what this year will bring! And I've made some big and small resolutions- let's see how I go!!! Resolutions include:

Continuing the health kick I have been on, and achieve a target weight of 70kg (about 155lbs)
Find a new job that is rewarding, diverse, interesting, and close to home (oh and that pays well)
To date more
To remove my eye make-up every night (this one I am NOT doing a very good job at!!)
To save money so that I not only can have my trip to the USA and my cruise in November, but also so that I can have around $10,00 in savings (I really need the new job to make this one happen!!!)

So, I have so much to write about.... In true Sid style, I'm bound to write a novel!! I've been away for most of the Christmas and New Year period- being summer in Australia, it's the perfect time to take a break to the beach and enjoy the public holidays, good company, sunshine, sand and surf!! The break has meant that returning to work has been draining- not only physically, but also mentally as the politics in the office go to a new low!!! Truthfully I'm not in a great mood today- and it all started after bouncing into the office first thing, and then feeling the vibe and being made to feel crap within the first three minutes!!! Grrrrrrr.....

So tonight when I went to my personal training session, I really gave it everything I had- you should have seen how strong my push ups were- however I was also measured today too. My trainer measures us monthly- apparently I have only lost about 2cm from my whole body (just over half and inch)- geez that made me mad... How can it be so??? I have done a complete turn around since yesterday morning when I discovered that over the Christmas break I had lost 300 grams (0.7lbs)- I was so thrilled with that- I did not put on, even after chocolates, bbqs, ice cream, numerous servings of Christmas Pudding, even fish and chips.... but I know that I have been so concious of what I have been eating, and how much exercise I have been doing, that the 300 grams lost was a great reward! But then to only have lost 2cm... Grrrrrrr.... :(

Anyway- on another positive note- I have dropped a dress size!! I was a size 18 (Au) for the longest time, and on the weekend I bought a pair of jeans (for $19.95) off a sale rack (that would usually be for size 8s!!) from Just Jeans (a 'smaller person's' jeans shop)- they were a size 16, and they fit like a glove!! My best friend has had to take them up for me, when she saw them on me she said "Somehow, I don't think these are going to fit you for much longer"!! I'm sure she's right!!! And as if that wasn't exciting enough, there was a dress in a store that I had been eyeing off for days, but for $55 I just wasn't prepared to buy it- besides the biggest size they had was a size 14!! But when I saw that it was 30% off, I knew I had to try that 14 on.... my mentality was that there was no way a size 14 would fit, so by trying it on I would let go of the desire to have it..... BUT- I tried it on, and it fit.... in fact it fits really well.... so I had to buy it!!! Two bargains, two smaller sizes= BONUS!!!

My trainer and I had a big talk the other week about self perception.... It's only been recently that I have really started to listen to the horrible things I call myself, and the horrible things I say to myself! I was just as surprised as I'm sure you would be, to realise that I was calling myself things like 'fat pig', 'fatty bumba', 'lard ass', and I would look at myself in absolute disgust and criticise myself for eating chocolate, or pigging out on a meal, or not going for a walk- so much so that I probably was driving myself to emotional eat, just so that I could hate myself and sabotage myself more.... Kelly (my trainer) asked me if I would ever say those things about any of my friends... of course my answer was NO WAY... then she asked if any of my friends would say that about me- my answer was 'No, of course not' (although that horribe voice in my head was quietly saying that they might be thinking it- although realistically I know that they wouldn't be)!! Why do we do that to ourselves- is it the media that makes us be so horrible to ourselves? Is it our family? Is it from abuse that we don't even remember? Is it from a boyfriend that was mean to us? Is it from not achieving our goals, and looking for answers, and thinking those answers were because it was us that didn't push hard enough, so this is our punishment?? I don't know what it was- but as Kelly said, you have to start being kind to yourself. Look in the mirror, and see the good parts, notice the changes that you like- for example, start by noticing how nice your shoulders look this week- maybe next week you might notice that your back is looking nicer etc- just start noticing the things that others see in you. She also suggested that positive affirmations are priceless and effective- she told me to say things like "I AM 70kgs", "I AM size 12" etc.... I think I'm going to write some of these affirmations and stick them to my bathroom mirror....

That brings me to my next story.... We had a girls night at the RSL on Saturday night (6 of us from the Caravan Park). It was a fun night (like it always is)... to watch the calories, I drank vodka with soda water, lime and bitters.... Anyway, my friend was showing the other girls the photo she has on her facebook profile. It was taken a few years ago, at a time when she was dieting, and had gone and had her make up and hair done for an evening event. She is a great looking girl, but this photo is a stunning picture of her. As she was showing the girls, they were gaping, uncertain that what they were seeing was really a photo of my friend... My friend loved their gaping. Seeing their response made me want to show them the photo on my profile (the same one I use on my blog)- this is one of my all time favourite photos of myself- I actually like looking at it, and think I look good in it!!!! So I showed the girls, to which they all looked at me dumbfounded, and each of them said that that is exactly what I look like all the time! I could NOT believe they were saying that. These girls see me with no make up, no hair styled, in jeans and tees (or bathers = aussie term for swimsuit). Each of them without provocation was saying with conviction that the photo I had shown them was me- and that I am beautiful. They couldn't believe that I didn't realise that I was so beautiful- they said not only physically, but also on the inside. WOW- what an amazing compliment. Of course I don't fully believe them, I'm sure they were just being nice- but it made me realise that the way we see ourselves can be SO different from the way other people see you. You think you know yourself better than anyone, but perhaps in many circumstances we underestimate ourselves when others see the true value in us....... I can't help but still feel like a bit of an ugly duckling, but I will always remember their kind words and their reaction- it will go towards building up a stronger person and improving my self confidence and ego!

Time for another entry I think... give you a break from this long rambling one!!

Happy New Year! I hope you enjoy following our journey- both Curvy Girl and I are so excited about the way we are going to look and feel during this year. We both have some exciting goals and plans set out, and we hope we can motivate our friends, families and followers whilst we continue on our journey!

My Going Away Present to 2009

2010-01-02T05:00:00.000-08:00

I gave 2009 a present at the last minute..something I didn't need anymore. I left behind 20 lbs! That's 2 10 lb bags of potatoes to give you an idea... whoo! In 5 weeks I have lost 20 lbs, 4 inches on my waist, 3 inches on my hips, 6 inches on the girls and half an inch on my thighs. It doesn't sound like a lot of inches but what a difference I can feel already!

I didn't make a resolution this year because I already made one too myself when I started this and that is a life long resolution so there was no need to make it again. I left that to things like be the best mom I can be and be more open to new things.

I am very proud of myself and for the first time I don't feel embarrassed to say that. I have kept it up even when it is trying. Last weekend I fell of the healthy eating and got back on, then this week I fell and sprained my wrist quite badly but the same day I got out of urgent care I came home, put my brace on and took the dog for a 45 minute walk. (It was my left hand so I could hold her in my right) We are kind of on hold with the walking as the temps are negative with the windchills right now but I used one of my many dvd's yesterday. Today I think that I will try my new game for Wii from Jillian of The Biggest Loser.

I am feeling very optimistic about this and I hope you all are having the success you want. I also thank you for following this because writing this is a great tool for me to keep making my journey.

Happy 2010 everyone!

I Stumbled...

2009-12-28T10:45:00.000-08:00

I must have patted myself on the back too hard the other day over how well I did with eating on Christmas.... because Saturday night and Sunday I fell. All of the goodies that I had passed up on on the actual holiday were at my sister's still on Saturday when I was there. I made it the whole day long until about 6pm and then the cookies and chips called my name. The positive aspect is that I only ate 5 cookies and a small handful of chips instead of whole bags of items and I had taken a walk that morning. It kind of continued on into Sunday when I just "HAD" to have some real pizza.. ya know... double crust, greasy, totally not healthy for me. I did eat too much of that. Then probably one of the best things happened... I was up almost all of last night sick from it. My body was clearly telling me that I DIDN'T need the pizza I thought I did. I won't soon forget that lesson let me tell you!

So today I picked myself back up, dusted myself off and got back on the right path of my journey. One or two "extras" does not have to lead to losing all of what I have accomplished and I can do this. My mom told me the other day that if I did not lose another pound I had already lost 15 and was in better health and shape than I was a month ago. I am not quitting but it was a great reminder again not to get lost racing to the end but staying steady and focused.

Tonight I will get back to walking. I find that I do feel better when I get out everyday. It is my little down time. There is nothing but silence usually (allright.. except for when I have to yell at Roxy for trying to eat all the junk on the ground), or sometimes I talk to Roxy. Yes.. I said I talk to my dog. She listens, doesn't judge and it keeps the weirdos away from ME because they think I am weird...LOL!

And there is another lesson.. take some time for yourself. If you give it all away there will be nothing left to share. Now I am done waxing poetic and deep and off to lunch. Here I come yogurt and sandwich!

What Did Santa Bring Me (and a recipe)

2009-12-26T04:41:00.000-08:00

How lucky am I to have Christmas right before my weigh in day? The only thing better than that is to have New Years Eve before my weigh in day next week! All that said I did pretty good. I lost 1.5 lbs and an inch in my hips. I have lost 15 lbs in a month and also been caffeine and junk food free in that time.

Now most people would be jumping up and down at losing weight during Christmas. I won't lie.. I was annoyed at how little it was. My struggle again.. I want it now! So back to the drawing board of telling myself nice things and reminding myself why slower is better.

1. I am making a lifestyle change.
2. About 5 more lbs and I will be down a size in pants.
3. I enjoyed myself more than planned but not overate at my sister's. I had my pre-packed, point calculated lunch all ready. Then I saw that she had Italian beef and rolls.. mmmmmm. So I made a decision.. I would scrap the pre-packed lunch, have one beef and one roll and enjoy the holiday with my family. There was chips, cookies and chocolate (say it with me now.. "Oh My!") but I only ate a sliver of one and gave the rest to my daughter.
4. My daughter is learning these healthy habits from me. She ate yesterday but only a very small amount of the junk food. And she lost 2 lbs from walking with me and the dog this week. I must teach her to do it the right way.. not the NOW way.
5. It's a journey, not a race. If I rush to the end I lose the enjoyment of the adventure that I am sharing with Sid. One of the best things about this is that Sid and I have reconnected and gotten closer than we ever were before!

So, I was thinking about skipping the walk when I got up this morning but I know that it is necessary. Heck.. I might even shovel some snow! I hope all had a Merry Christmas and that we all start the New Year a little lighter!

Italian-Seasoned Snack Mix
4 cups criss-cross of corn and rice cereal (such as Crispix)
2 cups oyster crackers
2 cups tiny fat free pretzelz
1/4 cup reduced calorie stick margarine melted
2 large egg whites
1/4 cup parmesan cheese
1 tablespoon driied Italian seasoning.

1. Preheat oven to 300 degrees
2. Combine first 3 ingredients in a large bowl. Combine margarine and egg whites in a small bowl, stirring well with a whisk. Pour margarine over cereal mixture; toss gently to coat. Sprinkle cheese and Italian seasoning evenly over cereal mixture; toss gently.
3. Spread mixture evenly over cookie sheet coated with cooking spray. Bake at 300 degrees for 25 minutes or until crips.

And so this is Christmas.....

2009-12-24T21:31:00.000-08:00

Merry Christmas!!! Didn't that come around quickly this year.... I think I say that every year, but here in Oz the day is nearly done (well it's 4.30pm) and I just have not been able to crack the Christmas cheer!! I feel like I haven't had the same preparation time, or perhaps there's just a general lack of Christmas cheer- many people I have chatted to have felt the same way!!!

I am so tired today- I have been to my auntie's for lunch- we all brought a plate of food, so it was a good spread, but not that much in the way of really low fat options- but that's to be expected on Christmas day I suppose....

My week hasn't been so good on the eating and exercising front- I have actually found myself to be really tired all week.... not sure if it's the end of year blues, or if it's that my body is in need of some rest, or if it's just simply that I'm tired- or maybe even bored- but regardless, tired I have been.... so I haven't walked as much as usual- in fact I've barely walked at all. And because of Christmas I only had one personal training session. But I'm off to the beach tonight, so plan to do a morning walk each day I'm away... and plan to drink LOTS of water!!! I expect there might be a few boozy nights- but I'll try to temper that with water in between drinks (wonder how long that will last?!!!)....

I've also been pretty bad with eating this week- there has been bbqs, chocolate, christmas puddings, potato salad everywhere- and this is the sad thing about me and temptation- I just find it so hard to say no.... I'm sure I haven't been nearly as bad as I would have been on other occassions, but I know I still haven't been 'good'.... I feel a bit bad about not sticking to my guns and 'dieting', but then I think that this is life, and this time of year is always going to be like this- even the thinnest of people often put on a few kilos at this time of year, they just work hard to lose them afterwards.....

So I have decided that since I will be at the beach until Monday night, that I won't weigh in until next week- so really not until the new year..... aside from being more practical, it will also give me an extra week to get back on track, and perhaps even out the damage that the last week may have caused- in turn meaning I'll have no reason to fall into the trap of being upset with my weight loss result!

There are some aspects of this time of year that I love- mostly it's showing appreciation to those that you hold close to your heart, and helping people out in need, and seeing the kids so excited and happy.... I've really enjoyed a bit of nostalga this year, and it's fair to say that I have the most amazing friends in the world- I have certainly been adorned with friends that make me feel like a better person for knowing them- I am very lucky in that respect.

Anyway- guests are on their way- so until my next post- MERRY CHRISTMAS.

Sid xoxox

Pizza Recipe

2009-12-20T05:50:00.000-08:00

So I have been CRAVING pizza but I know if I order one that I will not be able to stop at one piece. Can you imagine? Inspiration came in the form of my daughter who asked if we could make pizza together again since we hadn't in awhile. BINGO.. I rooted through my folder of healthier recipes and dusted off the recipe I will share with you. I got this from a dear friend who has shared my battle over the years as well but is much more successful than I am.

I hope you enjoy this as much as we do and let me know if you find a recipe that YOU enjoy!

1 15 oz jar pizza sauce
1 10 or 13 oz can refrigerated pizza dough
1 1/2 cups low fat shredded mozzarella cheese
Sprinkle of Italian Spices (optional)
1 lb lean ground round

1. Cook meat until it's done and crumples. Drain if necessary.
2. Add sauce and seasoning and cook until heated.
3. Spray 9 x 13 and unroll dough, press the bottom and half way up the sides.
4. Add sauce and bake uncovered for 12 minutes.
5. Sprinkle cheese and continue to bake 5 minutes or until crust is browned and cheese is bubbly.
6. Remove and let stand 15 minutes.

I make mine without the meat. You can also add veggies but remember to increase your cooking time.

Procrastination and Denial!

2009-12-19T14:35:00.000-08:00

Every day this week I have thought about writing in our blog, but procrastination has taken over- 'procrastination'- a not so great part of my make up!!! I'm very good at it..... And each day I've questioned myself as to why I kept putting off writing an entry, only to realise I was in denial! Why? Because I cheated myself this week, and I knew I was doing it, and I have made a pact to be completely honest in my blog entries, so I knew I'd have to fess up and admit to my own sabotage!! (I know, I'm a complicated person at times!!!)....

Things don't always work out as planned- I've had a week of last minute changes- activities are on, activities are off, last minute activities come up!! The boy I've had a bit of a crush on doesn't appear to be living up to my expectations. I've been so busy at work trying to catch up, and one of the girls thought there was something wrong with me- a wake up call that I wasn't being my usual chirpy self- but hey- I was head down, bum up in my work load!! So with all of this in mind, when I had a craving for Christmas Pudding Ice Cream from Cold Rock (Australia's equivalent to Cold Stone- my favourite ice creamery ever!!!) I succumbed to the craving.... Now I don't get too many cravings since I've changed my diet and concentrated on increasing my activity/exercise... and I know that if I just had have plundered on for a few more days, the craving would have passed.... but alas I found myself standing at the counter of Cold Rock, ordering a tub to take home!! So desperate I was for the Christmas Pudding Ice Cream that I literally paid for it with my last 5 cents!!! I searched my car high and low for small change, so that I could buy the larger of the two containers!!!! Desperation!

So with my container in hand, I headed home, and that night ate dinner backwards (dessert first, dinner secone)!! Before I realised it (and literally I was not thinking about the act of eating, as much as I was enjoying every mouthful of this delicious treat) I had eaten half the tub.... Feeling guilty, and carrying that guilt into the next day, I decided when I got home from work that I might as well just finish the damn tub off.... The upside- I've had my fix.... The downside- what the heck was I doing to myself???

In addition to my ice cream mayhem, I also had some trifle at work on Friday- I did not go back for seconds though (that in itself is an accomplishment when trifle is concerned!!!).... (Trifle is a sponge cake, usually soaked in cherry, with fruit layered on top, jello over that, custard over that, maybe some more fruit, and in some instances- such as this- topped off with cream!- YUM).

It was my little sister, Megan's, birthday on Monday- my little sister in America that is. So on Tuesday morning, instead of my regular long walk, I had a shorter walk so that I could come home and call her (the time difference is the reason I called on Tuesday here)... That night I had a late night out with a friend looking at Christmas lights etc, so opted for a sleep in, the next morning, rather than my usual walk. On Friday I skimped again on my walk, opting for the shorter one....

So I feel like I've really cheated myself this week.... I did go to my personal trainer, and I have been watching what I eat the rest of the time... and although there were two days when I didn't walk as far as I usually do, I still got up to walk! I guess I need to look at the good things I did, right?!!!

Well, on the good note- even with a week of interuptions and indulgences, I still lost 400 grams (0.9lbs).... Not a huge amount- but still a loss- and I'll take it with a huge smile after my week!!!!

In saying that, CG has been such a great motivation for me- she's always checking in, making sure I don't lose sight of my goal.... And as she says, it's so great to have someone to tag along with you on this journey....

In this week I have had a couple of girls from work, my best friend, and the whole of my personal training group (including my trainer) tell me that I look like I've lost weight! That's the best when someone tells you that! Such a great feeling.... I can't wait to be 70kg (155lbs) and have people compliment me on how good I look- it's such a great ego booster!!

I've been single for a long time now- I say that I've been single for 8 years- but really that's not true, as I've had plenty of relationships over the years... and last year I was head over heals in what I thought was something fantastic, but was all a figment of my imagination in hindsight!!! But I ask myself why I have been single for so long- what is wrong with me??.... Aside from the wall I built to protect myself from being hurt (which isn't that hard to chip down!!), I am ashamed of how my body looks.... I'm terrified to show this body to anyone that might genuinely care about me, for fear they'll run the other way.... I'm sure my body isn't the most disgusting body out, and I'm certain that there are plenty of women in very loving relationships that are bigger than me- but if I'm being honest, then my body image really is a problem that I have created..... Being in a relationship doesn't define who I am (thankfully!!! Could you imagine how depressing it would if it did!!), but I still long to be in a meaningful, romanatic, committed relationship with someone I can consider a best friend.... I also long to have that so that I can add a new dimension to the friends I have- being the only single person in my immediate circle of friends, I see how all the couples interact with each other, the different topics they have to talk about, the way the boys hang out, and I kinda feel that I'm letting my friends down by not having a significant other in my life...... (Wow, that's deep for a Sunday morning!!!! -but honest!)....

Anyway- the plan is that I'll be on this weight loss journey until I'm at a place where I can be content in this 'vehicle that carries me around'- content enough that I'd be prepared to share it with someone else!

Can you believe the success that CG is having?!!! She is an amazing weight loss machine! I am so proud of her (and a little jealous of the huge numbers she's pulling!!!! lol).... and being winter in the USA, it must be so hard- so right now, I'd love to be across the ocean to give her a huge hug and tell her in person how inspiring she is... (I'm sure everyone would agree with that)!

As of my weigh in today, I weigh (and I never tell anyone the exact amount): 94.7kg (208.3lbs). I have lost, since 19th October, 5.4kg (11.9lbs). I still have just under 25kgs (55lbs) that I want to lose. My first big milestone that I'm setting myself is to get to 90kg (198lbs)- when I get there I'm going to go out and get myself a new tattoo... I've wanted it for so long, and it will be the perfect reward for the 10 kgs (22lbs) I will have lost when I get there!!

This week is Christmas week- tomorrow we have a Christmas lunch at work, and tomorrow night I'm going to the ballet, Tuesday night I have personal training, then my best friend and I wrap presents, Wednesday night is my friend's 40th birthday party, Thursdday night I'm doing a gym trial (although I have no plans to join- I'll take the free work out!!!) and Friday is Christmas.... For Christmas day I'm going to my auntie's house- we have to each bring a plate- I'm going to do a platter of vegie sticks with a low fat dip, so that I know that I have a low fat alternative to munch on instead of filling up with bad stuff.... (although I also plan to make Christmas Pudding Balls- which are not so good!!! lol)... Then Christmas night I'm heading down to the beach and will return Monday night.... There are bound to be some boozy nights at the beach- but I hope for good weather so that days will be spent drinking lots of water, and eating only main meals!

Wow- this is a long blog... But has been somewhat cathartic to get out how I'm feeling!

Merry Christmas! I hope to report back next week (weigh in will be Tuesday after Christmas) with some great news! :)

-Sid-

The Impatience Sets In

2009-12-19T04:24:00.000-08:00

I lost 2.1 this week. A steady loss which is what we all should strive for but I admit that when I saw it I felt..."disappointed". I know in my head that it is a good loss and that it isn't more because I didn't walk as much this week. However, even though it didn't come on overnight I want it off NOW! I have learned too that coming off "now" means comes back and more in the future but I suffer from impatience. "Sigh" yet another lesson I will have to add to my list of things to learn in this journey.

I lost 4 inches in my waist, 1 inch in my hips and none in my thighs or bust. I guess I know now where I need to start targeting more. They don't call walking the waist whittler for nothing!

I had a food issue this week. I have eaten fresh pineapple since I got healthy the first time. I bought one last week and after eating it for 3 days the 4th brought about some major, stabbing stomach pains. Same result yesterday. Makes me sad as I hate to give up any healthy food that I like since there are so many I don't! But stabbing pains in the stomach are unproductive. I had my gallbladder out almost 5 years ago and my body just doesn't process things the same way so good-bye pineapple.. I will miss you. Maybe we will meet again positively in the future!

The Wii Fit that I got has been a lot of fun this week. I got my Wii age from 52 down to 34 which is my current age in less than a week so that was exciting. I enjoy doing this with my daughter. The hula hooping I have been doing probably has helped the waist as well.

I am proud of myself for losing weight, sticking with it, only having one piece of chicken at the company luncheon and looking at myself in the mirror more. Not a lot yet, but more than before. It is a great help to me to have Sid on this journey. Support makes all the difference in the world, even though we are across the world from each other. So if you are going to embark on this journey please make sure you have a friend that will support and encourage you when you are feeling as if you can't do it.

Exercise Fun and a Recipe

2009-12-14T04:43:00.000-08:00

I received an early Xmas present yesterday from a family member. It was a Wii Fit Plus and I love it! I have only used it a little bit and I don't think it will be good for cardio but it is another way to keep things interesting. I particularly like the running programs. I HATE running and look like a dork when I do so it will be a good way for me to maybe work my way up from walking to running before the whole world sees me.

I started this weekend on a journey to love myself. Today as I was putting on my makeup I tried to really look at myself and not just the part of my face I was working on. I have really nice cheekbones! I put on a skirt today that I haven't been able to wear in a month and it looks good. A pencil skirt with a shirt that cinches at the waist. It makes my waist look really tiny and accentuates my curves. Love it!

I am going to share recipes that I like periodically and I hope that you enjoy them. Today I am sharing a Tender Chicken in Gravy recipe that is so easy to make my 10 year old makes it AND all of my family likes it....even those not worried about eating healthy. Enjoy and let me know what you think!

Tender Chicken in Gravy
Prep Time: 7 minutes Cook Time: 14 minutes

Cooking Spray
1 pound chicken breast tenders (or breast cut into strips)
1 (14 oz) can fat free, less sodium chicken broth
½ teaspoon of thyme
¼ teaspoon of garlic powder
¼ teaspoon of salt
¼ teaspoon of pepper
½ cup of fat free evaporated milk
2 tablespoons all purpose flour
1 tablespoon light butter

1. Place a large nonstick skillet coated with cooking spray over a medium-high heat. Add chicken and cook 2 minutes or until lightly browned. Turn chicken; add broth, thyme, garlic powder, salt and pepper; bring to a boil. Cover, reduce heat and simmer 3 minutes or until chicken is no longer pink in the center. Remove chicken from pan; set aside and keep warm.

2. Whisk together milk, flour and butter in a small bowl. Bring broth mixture to a boil. Cook 4 minutes or until liquid is reduced to 1 cup. Slowly stir in milk mixture and butter. Cook stirring constantly until gravy thickens. Serve chicken.

A Great Day

2009-12-12T17:43:00.000-08:00

Today was a great day for many reasons. One of which is that I lost 4.6 lbs to bring me to 11 lbs total in 2 weeks. This was a joyous moment! I am always happiest when the scale is going down. I weathered my trip to the movies. I wound up eating more than I had planned but less than the whole meal which was probably more points than a whole day for me.

This journey is very complex for me. Sid talks about being a skinny girl trapped in a "fat" body. I have the reverse syndrome where even when I weighed 120 lbs and was a size 3 I still felt fat. My head knew this was wrong (it hurt to sit down there was so little fat on me) but my heart said you are not worthy...something it has said since I was a kid. I was never thin, but have not always been overweight. I have been 120 to 252 lbs. I was "happier" at 120 in some ways but in others it was very stressful. I thought when I lost all the weight that "poof" life would be happily ever after. I have learned that life is probably never going to be happily ever after but that I NEED to learn to love myself.

I need to learn to love myself for many reason. For my daughter is one, so she won't grow up to have the same issues as me. The most important reason is for myself. I don't look at mirrors, I don't take pictures often.. unless they have been taken from the best possible angle.. yes even this picture. I don't swim for the horror of wearing a bathing suit. I don't fully enjoy things because I am always worrying about what people "might" be thinking about how fat I am. I have a friend who told me that I need to start looking at myself in the mirror and thinking about how good I look... the concept horrifies me. It also makes me think of Stewart Smalley "I'm good enough, I'm smart enough and darn it... people like me". But the point is valid..if I don't like myself how will others like me. I believe that people are beautiful and lovable in all shapes and sizes.. just not me. But I will start working on this and it will be a struggle.

So for my first step in the journey I ate a little more than I had planned, but not so much that I binged and this can hopefully set the tone for the rest of my life. That nothing is off limits, I can have anything I want in life (in moderation) and that I deserve it and am worth it.

Starting on this lesson alone made today a great day!

Weigh in Day- 12 Dec 2009

2009-12-12T13:04:00.000-08:00

So up I am- it's now 8.05am on Sunday, and I've been up for 45 minutes!

Sprang out of bed, and raced to weigh myself in... this week, the scales told me I lost 700 grams (1.5lbs). I have to be honest in saying I'd hoped for a bit more this week.... but I'm still very happy with this loss. I'd love to lose at least 1 kilogram (2.2lbs) in this next week- will be trying very hard!

I didn't go for a walk yesterday- infact I think I had the laziest day on record... I'm not going to beat myself up over it- I rarely have a total day of 'nothingness'! Today I have to go and do some grocery shopping... so I'll do the old trick of parking the car far away from the entrance to get in a few more steps!

I've not had the greatest week eating wise- only in that I had a few days of very low appetite- I thought that might accelerate my weight loss, yet a slow and steady result still transpired- only confirming to me that it's essential to eat well and properly. In a week where I do have a healthy appetite, I can lose the same amount! Interestingly, having had a few days of low appetite, my eating and habits since then have not been as good as they ususally are. For three days I haven't had my vitamins for example- I was sure I wouldn't notice the difference- but I definitely have- I've been more tired and lethargic without them! And the afternoon cravings for sweet foods came back on the days when I didn't eat properly- my body was obviously looking for the energy I'd starved it of not eating properly. Since I've improved my diet, I rarely crave sweet foods... Don't get me wrong, I still eat them from time to time, but I don't generally have those dire desires for them!

I've been feeling a little down these last two days- usually if I felt 'bla' or down, I'd indulge in some binge eating.... I've probably had a bit more to eat than usual given that I've had such a boring weekend, but actually I've been really happy with myself that I haven't gone nuts on eating.... How wonderful would it be to break the emotional eating cycle I've become so good at over the course of my life!

Signing out a bit lighter than last week! :)

It's my first time....

2009-12-11T14:55:00.001-08:00

Cyber world- HELLO!!!!

I've never blogged before, but as you may have already seen, this is the blog of two friends a world apart! CG and I met nearly 20 years ago in high school, and have recently reconnected. Both in a situation of being in our 30's, single, and over weight, we've agreed that journalling our thoughts as we embark on a quest to lose weight is a pretty fun and smart way to not only inspire each other, and other bloggers, but to also be brutally honest about where we're at.

At nearly 100kg in October- after having been out of work for 3 months, and having two overseas holidays, I realised that I don't want to be this skinny person in a fatties body anymore- and the strong motivation to do something about it began! On October 12th 2009, I started my journey towards being a 70kg person again! In the last two weeks, I have got myself to a weight lower than what I have been in the last year, and so now the real journey begins!

Unlike CG, I'm not going to Weight Watcher's classes. I've tried it before, and had some real success with the program at the beginning of this decade, but this time I want to do this myself. I'm watching what I eat, taking note of any reading material I find that sheds some light on healthy choices, lifestyle improvements, weight loss, excersie etc, and I'm collecting them to go into a scrap book (for future reference if I start to fall of the wagon!). I'm walking each day- I started going a 23 minute morning walk, and am now up to a 45 minute walk. I get up at 5.45am every morning (on weekdays) and go for my walk. I'm a little slack with that on weekends, but I always try to get some type of excercise in. I'm also seeing a personal trainer two times a week- it's a group session, so only costs $10 for 45 minutes (a bargain!), and I try to get to a dance class each week- but that doesn't always happen!

My weigh in days are on Sunday mornings. I get up, take a loo break, then straight onto the Wii Fit to see what news it has for me! So far so good... tomorrow morning I pray it will give me some great news!

Like everyone, I'm going to have ups and downs. I'm aware of that, which should make me prepared, I know- but I'm also aware that I'm sure to disappoint myself from time to time. Regardless, I would love to have shed enough weight to be around 70kg by the middle of next year (June/July 2010)- which as I see it, would be the perfect start to a new decade, and to the rest of my life.

I am single, and aside from wanting to look better, I know that if I feel better about myself I'll have more chance of finding Mr Right... and not only that, when I find him, I'd like to think that I might have kids sometime in the not too distant future, and truthfully I don't want to be this size when getting pregnant!! I also am going on a cruise next year, and boy it would be nice to feel like I look great in a pair of bathers (swimsuit)!!!!

So with all that said, watch this space- between CG and I, I'm sure we'll have some stories to tell, some dilemas to face, and some successes to share!

Happy Weekend.

My First Dilemma

2009-12-11T06:15:00.000-08:00

So I am almost at 2 weeks of doing Weight Watchers and having success losing weight and I have reached my first dilemma which I knew there would be some. I am going to see a movie on Saturday at a theater where you HAVE to order something. I am sure you can imagine they do not serve healthy food. I have gone almost 2 weeks without caffeine so I am not really sure I want to have a soda but the food will be out of this world in points! I tend to be an all or nothing person. When I got down to a size 3 it was by never eating anything that wasn't healthy. When I have something that I consider "junk" food I tend to not be able to stop so I avoid it. I think this isn't realistic though and part of the reason I have failed in the past. I am thinking that I will eat really light during the day, order food and ask them to bring me a take home container when the food comes.. that way I can place most of it in the container and avoid temptation. This is good practice for the office Xmas luncheon next week!

A Beginning

2009-12-10T06:24:00.000-08:00

I've never blogged before so bear with me. A friend of mine from high school that lives in Australia and I reconnected on facebook and found that we both were taking a similiar journey in our life right now. We are trying to something many have done before, some are successful (I have been in the past) and others have struggled facing ups and downs (me now). We are attempting to lose weight. I won't lie.. I want to be healthy but I also want to look better! We are going to meet face to face this summer and have decided it would be fun to record our journey together.