Weekend Windown

There were some good things this week and some not so good things. That's what life is made of so I refuse to let anything send me in the dumps emotionally although it is harder to stay positive this week than last.

I lost a pound this week and a small measurement in my hips and thighs. YAY! I had gained 3 lbs last week and no gain is a good thing. I walked every day but one last week due to the cold.

Now the not so good things. As of yesterday morning I had lost all 3 lbs. Then I made a not so bright move. I had a group of people over and they were kind and brought bags of chips including my favorite! Had I asked them they would not have brought them but I need to learn to be around food that I do not eat. If I live in a bubble that will restrict me quite a bit. Needless to say I decided to have just one chip. I am sure you can guess that I didn't stop with just one. I didn't eat the whole bag (Yay!) but I ate enough that my enemy sodium changed the scales.

I had mentioned before that I am struggling with a mental challenge as well. It is like a mental plateau and still hanging in there. I feel like a cranky kid sometimes.

"I don't want to write what I eat, I don't want to exercise, I want to eat chocolate and chips and other things. They get to do it.. I want to also!"

If I was my child I would being given a time out right about now. (My daughter would get a big kick out of that!) I went back again to my journals that I have kept and yes right about this weight I went through the same thing about 7 years ago at the same weight. I kept with it then and was able to go on and be successful losing over 100 lbs so I will keep with it now. It may mean that I plateau a little for awhile but the end result and my health is the important part so time is nothing.

I almost didn't blog this morning as I was embarrassed that I had screwed up again but hiding things is never good. So if you see me being really quiet and hiding...pin me down and ask me what is going on! Thank you for sharing this journey with Sid and I and for allowing me to be "Debbie Downer" today.

Here's my commitment to myself this week: I will do 10 minutes of pilates daily this week.

Is there something you can commit to this week? What is it?

Oops I Did It Again...

No I am not channeling my inner Britney Spears this morning. I gained again this week. It was 3 pounds and I knew it was coming. How you ask? Because I didn't do a darn thing I know I needed to do this week. I didn't journal, eat healthy or exercise. What I did do that was right was get on the scale this morning and face it without letting it send me into a junk food eating binge of "I hate myself I can't do this!". The second thing I did right was to blog about it. I have a tendency to hide when I do not have success at weight loss and that starts the slippery slope to quitting. So I summoned up my courage this morning to share with you my gain.

Life is not perfect and neither am I. I have an addictive personality. I don't really drink, I don't smoke or do drugs. But if I enjoy it I have a tendency to want to do it/have it A LOT. I sometimes have to remind myself that is like an addiction and how well would a recovering person do if they had to drink, smoke or drug every day but only in moderation? Don't misunderstand me that I am saying that people cannot overcome this and lose weight to be healthier, but I truly believe that it is just as hard for people with food issues as it is with other vices to overcome.

So I start another week more committed than I was before and if for no other reason than that the gain was a positive thing. But after I lose them again I consider them a guest who has overstayed their welcome and they are NOT welcome back!

What was your challenge this week?

My First Gain.. And It's Okay

This week was really a hard week in the whole package in my life. Just one of those weeks where nothing seems to go quite right. I posted about my daughter being sick (she just went back to school yesterday) and then I got sick. This led to a week of not really eating the way I should and no exercise. (Dogs were giving me the evil look)I felt like the good year blimp knowing that I was not doing what I was supposed to do. I was sure I had gained 5 lbs and was mad at myself for getting rid of all those bigger clothes last weekend.

Well guess what? All my clothes still fit and I only gained 2 lbs! That might sound like a contradiction to be glad you gained 2 lbs. I am not glad I gained but glad it was only 2 lbs and not more. Glad that my clothes still fit, glad that I CAN do this even when it is tough. It is unrealistic to expect that I will never have a gain for the rest of my life. This has almost rejuvenated me to jump back even harder than before and luckily I am starting to feel better. As is always the case I need to be a little nicer to myself.

I want to celebrate some of the positive things that happened this week. I went to the my endocrinologits (I have Hashimoto's, and underactive thyroid) and he was congratulated me on losing weight. My cholesterol is great. They want it to be under 200 and mine is 120! My blood pressure 135/77. That was a little higher than I would have liked but I had caffeine and sodium this week so not surprising. I also had several people at work notice that I am losing weight! Hmm.. could they have read last week's post? Hope so...:-)

So this week is dedicated to hitting it harder than ever and not losing control. I hope you all had a good week!

Curvy Girl